I went actually inside a grocery store this morning and that has sapped my will to do anything else the rest of the day.
Mr. Loomy went grocery shopping this week, and not only did it wipe him out for the rest of the day, but he now knows that wearing a mask triggers all his claustrophobia issues, which makes him not be able to breathe deeply, and sets off a massive panic attack.
ION, I left the house! We went for a drive! I haven't left the house since ... March 8th, for Dad's birthday lunch, so this was weirdly exciting.
(I had Mr. Loomy take a photo of me so I can post it to my office's WFH slack channel to prove I don't
immediately
burst into flame upon contact with sunlight.)
Matthew is a very caring and loving person and I do care for him and love him but he lacks a certain amount of ambition and he is in no real hurry to move out and I need to be out of this house. And part of me hiding away is that ... I have a desktop not a laptop so I'm not mobile but even if I was almost all of his day is playing Xbox and I don't want to just sit on the couch and be there while he is yelling at the game.
Matthew is a very caring and loving person and I do care for him and love him but he lacks a certain amount of ambition and he is in no real hurry to move out and I need to be out of this house.
He does sound sweet, and I'm sorry to be critical. But I am eager for you to have a better living situation, and I think you deserve something more from your partner if you want to build a life with them. Anyway, I know you're working on it and have a lot of constraints to finesse.
I know David, it's just one of those things where I know this but then I feel protective at the same time. But I also don't want to give the impression I'm stuck where I'm being mistreated, when it's just more of unmatched wants and needs.
I think when we met we were closer to the same spot but then I had a lot of things change and I changed. I mean 3 years ago I still had so much self doubt and so much lower self esteem and more self loathing and I've really moved past that.
Not getting what you need from your partner isn't necessarily an indictment of them, it can just be incompatible aims and lifestyles. Like, if a couple disagrees over the issue of children neither one of them is the villain, but it's very difficult to build a life together that will work for both.
(I had Mr. Loomy take a photo of me so I can post it to my office's WFH slack channel to prove I don't immediately burst into flame upon contact with sunlight.)
Of course not Jilli, that would be following johnny-come lately cinematic trends. You have respect for tradition.
They can be good, kind people you love - but love isn't enough.
This is some good writing, here. My friends who own a restaurant down the hill sent it to me, and I know Lena and Alice are nodding along with every word of it.
amyparker!!
I appreciated that article. So very hard on folks in the retail food industry.
Of course not Jilli, that would be following johnny-come lately cinematic trends. You have respect for tradition.
A thing I am sure I will have to explain to them, bless.
Will contacted me (you know, my ex I moved to VT for) he has been deemed an essential worker so has been working. Two co workers have been sick but the state isn't testing anyone. And he knows one person who died of covid 19. He said so far no one else has been sick and he's gotten hazard pay but sitll it's scary to think about .
