The pumpkin pies bake for an hour, so I guess I can set it up while they're baking.

I can't believe tomorrow is Christmas Eve. Sheesh.

Oh, yeah, happy Christmas Adam

Bake like the wing, Tep!

Sorry about having to work, Sheryl. I hope it's an ok day.

I'm braiding the last of the turkey legs I got for Thanksgiving and didn't need, so that meant opening a bottle of red wine and boy is it tasty. I think I'm just gonna curl up under a blanket for the rest of the evening, eat turkey legs, drink wine, and read. Get my Tudor on.

My day really sucks for a lot of reasons and on top of that I got of my cr to do last minute Xmas shopping I don't really want to do and the wind caught my car door and it hit a woman's car and she got really pissed . It's a tiny little mark on the handle and I had trouble finding my I'd card and she kept going on about how careless I was. I've been out side for about 10 mins since 9 am todag and I had no idea it was so windy.

I don't know what kind of car it was but she acted like I did it on purpose.i didn't I was just tryibt to get out of my car.

She was said she thought it would cost sverwal hundred to fix . The paint is gouged. I gave her my insurance but you couldn't really tell because it was dark and I had to open my door to figure out where it hit.

"but open it carefully when you open it don't just let it fly open " she tells me after she asked me to open the door.

The wind caught it and pulled out of my hand.

I hope you took pictures, askye. They're your best bet to make sure she doesn't claim you also dented her bumper or whatever.

The universe laughs at me -- in today's regular mail, not the kind that a nephew sends special delivery from NJ, was the birth certificate copy I originally ordered about two weeks ago, well ahead of the four-to-six weeks timeline predicted by the website.

So now I have two copies. One of which can go to the Registry with me tomorrow. And the other is now in the fire-proof box that lives in the cellar, where a copy should have been kept in the first place.

Oh Theo! That is exactly what would happen to me!

Askye, that sucks

My sister contacted me again, and also left cookies while I was asleep with my stomach ailment. I feel terrible putting them off. I so just want to lie to my mother, but Maria is convinced it is a terrible, hurtful idea. My therapist is sort of like - just don't tell your mom, which I am more inclined to go with, but the guilt eats me up either way. I haven't come up with a good way to talk about it with her, so my sense is she is going to be mad anyway! On the other hand my sister is so sweet and nice I can't take it! Aargh.

I agree with your therapist, just don't talk to her about it and in fact, I wouldn't talk to Maria about it either.

I didn't take pictures I didn't think about it. It was all I could do not to have a meltdown, which I then started having in TJ MAxx and am now having and once again Matthew's Mom gets to be a frot row witness to this and I came home and I'm yelling and Matthew is upset and why?>

I am the one who pushed for certain types of presents and wanted things wrapped and wanted to make soemthing special on Christmas day and have stockings. He doesn't care about that or maybe I say it enough or properly. Sunday I told him THREE Times and Laid out presents to be wrapped and last night he claimed I n ever told him anything and he didn't know. It's his family too.

I have not been like this for awhile. Months, maybe or almost a year. I don't know exactly the factors but I knw living with his Mom is playing a role in this and I can't keep doign this and if we can't come up with a realistic plan then I need to re evaluate our relationship.

But siler lining I was walking around TJ maxx looking for something to buy to make myself feel better and I realized that spending money wont' make me really feel better. I didn't end up buying anything because I was texting Matthew in line about how I was waiting to check out and I still needed to go to Aldi and if Aldi didn't have more gift bags I had to stop somewhere to get more if we needed some and he messged back "Don't take too long" and also that he knows I like shopping and I just got mad and dumped my stuff and left because I can only go as fast as I can and I am really miserable and screw all this.

I ws thinking about making a nice breakfast. Mom used to do that, I liked that. And have stockings . I like opening stockigns but not if I'm the only one who cares. I was thinking of making some Panatone french toast for breakfast with some fruit and maybe some whipped cream but why am I putting more work on myself when it's not important to anyone else.

Msbelle, that is good advice. I am, frankly, a terrible liar, so it will come out, at least to Maria. But if I am strong in my conviction it is the right thing to do, she will back me up. My mother, not so mucc.

So the gifts I ordered for my brother and SIL had a Dec 17-23 delivery window when I placed the order. I just checked the tracking and now it's expected to be the 26th. I really don't want to shop tomorrow.

askye, I am sorry it is so hard. I am the only one who cares about doing things at holidays anymore and the more I push to do them the angrier I become when no one else wants to. This year I really tried to stop and I did what I wanted just for me and it has been a bit better.

Eventually I hope to start to to do things that I like with friends and my family time will be low-key nothing for holidays.

It sucks, but your enjoyment of things requires other people participating, then you have to find like-minded people or develop new ways of doing those things just for yourself.