I kind of never want to apply for a job again. We are still, at my job, trying to convince people that being in charge of admissions and registration is as high a level as low level instructional design (which so far has been typing things into Blackboard and making them work), so I may have to. One idea is to make a generic "project manager" job, and then assign me to my old job so that I can develop business processes that can be replicated, and then move on to other areas of the school that need fixing.

I have probably my last therapy appointment with EAP. I love this therapist. I am not sure if I will continue. She is not necessarily encouraging me to stop, but I only have one more EAP appointment left and then I will need to move on to someone else if I want to. What I did learn is that I was really missing my weekly check in with my old boss, and this satisfies that need, but now my weekly check in is back, at least temporarily because I am doing my old job.

Even if you weren't doing your old job, or aren't again in the future, I bet your old boss wouldn't mind doing a 15 minute or half hour checkin/coffee with you, Sophia!

One thing about your linkedin profile, msbelle, does the job title you're using accurately reflect the kind of title the jobs you're looking at have? I wouldn't worry about what your current job is but one that you want to get.

Gud different people need different therapists and therapy. I found DBT therapy to be really helpful and for awhile I bounced around to different therapists before I found one that helped.

DBT therapy and the group therapy I did a few years ago were really helpful because they focused on concrete things and actions rather than just on my actual emotions. I often had a hard time explaining or even recognizing how I felt or why I reacted a certain way so learning specific skills from DBT and then how trauma effects us and how we react to it really helped me a lot. Something like that may help you as well

Theodosia, and others, covered my thoughts. We love you, Gud. We want this to be your safe place to vent. But the advice is generally when you see something say something, so we have to do so.

Went to court today with my son for the 5th or 6th time I think. Case dropped, dismissed, done. Finally. Hope to get some better sleep tonight.

Certification testing starts at 1PM today. An abundance of pass this stuff is really needed. 6 hours today, then another session either tomorrow or Friday, and then a third. It is pure torture. And the future of my business kinda depends on passing.

That's a hell of a day, Laura! Hope the testing goes as well as court did.

Love and ~ma to you, Laura.

I'm giving myself a bit more sleep than usual with the winter that's finally here (though some of you may laugh at it and call it fall), but it's 5:00 pm here and I r-e-a-l-l-y want to nap. Instead I've got almost two hours of work ahead of me followed by an hour of studying, then grocery store and then a meeting to wrap things with my ex-landlady (and getting money that's needed back, yay!). And then, possibly, some sports because my migraines are terrible lately with the weather change and cardio training helps.

You may see now why I want this nap to happen.

I have to say I feel better about the public defender system. I didn't hire him a lawyer, because 27 and not my job, and the charge for the public defender was $50. One of his friends who also is a PD said he lucked out and got the best one of the bunch. Anyway, other than never really talking to her very much at all, she did the job and I was glad we went that route. Probably 90% of the people I saw over my too many visits accepted plea agreements of one kind or another but she told him he was better off asking to go to trial as she expected dismissal. And she was right.

Shir, sadly none of us in the US can really comment on the political situation in Israel because ours is just as horrible/discouraging/whatever. I do hope yours resolves itself satisfactorily.

I'm busy watching a webex meeting that is presenting info that is totally relevant to me but makes absolutely zero sense. I can't tell if it's a bad presentation or I'm missing background or what, but geez, this woman is saying a lot of things that I'm like "huh?" Boo.

Also, hi everyone. I am grateful you exist and I know you.

Today's amusement: an online scammer spoofed a message from my boss to try and get me to buy "gifts for co-workers" on her behalf. So I applied for loan info with Rocket Mortgage using the scammer's cellphone number.