I just got news that a (relatively) recent crush - that transitioned to friends when it was clear the romance was going nowhere - passed away last month. Obviously, we hadn't been that close lately or I would have heard before a month had passed - but I'm still knocked for a loop. He was only 57, and NOT diagnosed with cancer like some of us. How can he be gone? I'm stunned. I have a couple of photos still on my phone that I took stealthily in a Home Depot that looked exactly like him + 20 years. I joked with him that it was Patrick from the future who came back to visit (and buy hardware supplies). Guess he won't be coming back now...
Anya Christina Emmanuella Jenkins. Twenty years old. Born on the fourth of July — and don't think there weren't jokes about that my whole life, mister, 'cause there were. 'Who's our little patriot?' they'd say, when I was younger and therefore smaller and shorter than I am now.
Anya ,'Potential'
Spike's Bitches 49: As usual, I'm here to help you, and I... are you naked under there?
Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
EpicTangent - Jan 17, 2024 4:59:51 pm PST #7988 of 8155
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
Laura - Jan 17, 2024 5:31:52 pm PST #7989 of 8155
Our wings are not tired.
I'm sorry, Epic. It does hit in a different and disconcerting way when one of our peers is lost, with added discomfort when you don't have answers.
sj - Jan 17, 2024 7:20:11 pm PST #7990 of 8155
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Epic, I'm so sorry. That is way too young.
Pix - Jan 17, 2024 7:37:41 pm PST #7991 of 8155
We're all getting played with, babe. -Weird Barbie
Oh, Epic, I'm so sorry. Too much death.
lisah - Jan 17, 2024 7:58:55 pm PST #7992 of 8155
Punishingly Intricate
I’m so sorry, Epic
erikaj - Jan 18, 2024 9:27:11 am PST #7993 of 8155
I'm a fucking amazing catch!--Fiona Gallagher, Shameless(US)
I've had that happen. The answers don't help that much.
EpicTangent - Jan 18, 2024 11:31:21 am PST #7994 of 8155
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
The answers don't help that much.
No, you're right. It won't change anything...except all of us going, "but he lost all that weight and kept it off for more than a decade," "but he was doing all that hiking in November," he didn't drink, smoke, or do drugs of any kind. It's just bewildering. And, honestly, a little scary for someone like me, who hasn't lost as much weight and is currently in treatment for cancer, and, and, and. If he can go with nothing wrong, what chance do I have? And I know one thing has nothing to do with the other, but you can't reason with my subconscious right now, I'm afraid. I feel like if we know what happened, my brain can go, "Well all right then." Even though it's obviously not all right with him gone.
erikaj - Jan 18, 2024 2:07:22 pm PST #7995 of 8155
I'm a fucking amazing catch!--Fiona Gallagher, Shameless(US)
Yeah, I know. It's weird for me, as a very healthy impaired person(although people with my disability have a huge risk of clots and stuff. Which I used to be young enough to think "too bad for them," about people who just...kind of didn't wake up one day.) I'm not worried, nor am I old...esp. given family that lived into their nineties. but one day, it won't be nothing, you know?
EpicTangent - Jan 18, 2024 4:29:24 pm PST #7996 of 8155
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
Yeah. On one hand, it's a little too real and close.
On the other, I was just watching a rerun of Friends and I swear I feel similarly about the loss of Matthew Perry as him. Whether that's a comment on how long it's been since Patrick and I had any quality time or a comment on how (weirdly) close I felt to Chandler...
I don't know - I'm just all in my head about it. A Buffista who overthinks stuff - who could have predicted that?
erikaj - Jan 18, 2024 4:42:07 pm PST #7997 of 8155
I'm a fucking amazing catch!--Fiona Gallagher, Shameless(US)
Feeling this so hard. "Hi, I'm Erika...I make jokes when I'm uncomfortable." (Didn't Bitches used to be about another kind of...feeling someone. Gropes Epic nostalgically) I had a milestone birthday this fall and totally feel like I'm...under-performing as a woman, human, activist...you name it. Which I know is not exactly all Living In The Moment and such. Which I'd like to do, I think.