Lately I feel like ibcant communicate verbally with anyone. Either I'm repeating myself because maybe I'm mumbling or talking top softly and can't tell. Or I'm trying to speak clearer and louder and it's taken as me being angry or harsh.
Or I say something or ask a question and no hears to even ask me to repeat myself. Because I keep repeating what I've said over and over. Or I'll say something repeatedly and then later whatever it is comes up and it's like brand new information or that that I didn't say anything and I'm just doing something.
Mostly with M and my nephew but a little with my mom and his mom .
Or I'm explaining or saying I'm going to do something or doing it and then it becomes suggestions to do something else or reasons why my way won't work .
I might be out of practice in talking to people .
askye, that sounds frustrating and obviously could be part of the concussion. But I noticed after being at home during Covid, I also somehow seemed to forget how to speak so other people understood me. Like I could not think of words or form sentences. Because I was so shy, and then learned to interact with the world by basically acting my muscles got rusty being mostly alone and not talking much. Like I can't always access the script.
I think it's a combination of things. The only people I talk to on a daily (or almost daily basis) are M, his mom, and E (my nephew) so that gets .. I need other people to talk to . I just am very much a loner and I forget how to conversate.
Very random, but: lately, every now and then when I need a good laugh, I return to the great foursome discussion from 2008 (linked to few posts back for context). It never fails. So, this just to say: thank you. I'm happy and grateful for this place. I love you, and I miss everyone we've lost since.
And I still can't believe that some of you were willing to write me in a fictional foursome just to distract me from the war.
Aw Shir that was a lovely reminisce. I miss Omnis all the time.
Omnis leaves a hole in my life, for sure. He'd be so happy to know you posted that, Shir.
I am very happy I got to meet him and I still think of him often.
Yeah, it used to be for more personal and/or raunchy content, but there is so little activity on the board that everything ends up in Natter. Natter used to move too fast for people back in the day.
(In a mixture of fandoms, looking to hug it out with the Bitches.)
Which reminded me of an attendant I had once who thought my volunteer job with Planned Parenthood was great for me "even though all you'll meet is bitches."(Although I did meet a dude or two, but I think they were all gynecologists...while in conversation, that was occasionally interesting, I wasn't altogether free of the cultural hang-up there.) And then, there's the other thing...if I can talk to a man easily, he's pretty much always married or with someone.