I will try to be present here more. I love you all, my chosen family.

{{WindSparrow}} Virtual tackle hugs.

hey, everyone.

Hey erikaj

Hi eirkaj!

I'd have much more to say, but I just finished swimming and am starving so dinner prep must happen.

Hey, erika.

Hey MM.

Safe snuggles with Laura.

Hi, WindSparrow, MM, erikaj, good to see you all.

askye, no wonder you're tired! UTIs are hard on a body. Rest and take care.

My blood pressure at the doctor's office yesterday was 116/80 which is amazing, it's usually around 130/95. Also, my A1c was 7.9 and my cholesterol dropped by 70 points. I was expecting my numbers to be much worse given how I haven't been taking care of myself lately. I can't explain this anomaly. I'd think my doppelganger gave the blood but I still have the bruise, so the only explanation is the lab switched my blood work with a healthier person.

I've been looking at SNL parodies of Celebrity Jeopardy...Ferrell's trebek is as good as i remember, but the jokes go on too long.

Well done, Zen. Nice when the body surprises you in a good way.

Today is going to be a rough day. It is the baby shower for my first grandchild. We won't be there. We don't feel welcome or wanted. My second son has double and tripled down on being a judgmental entitled ass. He even unfriended his father on FB for zero reason. My working theory is that son is overwhelmed. He has had recent health scares, as in TIAs and out of control cholesterol, which at 26 is pretty nuts. He has a new position at work, a new house, a baby on the way, plus all the usual stresses we all have. I feel his being so cruel to his father is a striking out at those closest. DH feels he has never loved and respected him as a father and that he has lost him forever. Expects he won't go to his funeral, that type of thing. He is just devastated. I drove out to the host's house last night and left my huge stack of gifts. At this point it looks like stuff is all they ever cared about anyway, which is the last thing I care about.

Mostly is it just a huge shock. We really thought we were super close and loved each other's company. We did things together. They lived with us and I thought we got along great. It is just such a 180 from where I thought we were in our relationship. I'm not engaging at all. I have 100% confidence that we were always there for our children and gave them unconditional love, encouragement, and support. I have no guilt. This is something going on with son, and he has to figure it out, or not.

So yes, I am heartbroken, but just focused on improving our lives by getting healthy. DH has to lose a bunch of weight so he can have hernia surgery. So I am cooking nice healthy stuff and we are exercising. Turning the focus inward. DIL's mother and DH's sister are determined to try and fix things, but only time might fix it. The wounds will take a long time to heal.

ION, my eldest son, who has caused me the gray hair over the last decade is doing great. He is thrilled with his move to NY and loving his apartment, his girlfriend, and his job. He has been sweet and communicative.

Sorry to spill here, but I have to get it out or my teeth will surely be ground to nothing.

I’m so sorry this is happening. I’m here to read about it when you need to dump some data on the board. I’m aghast at what that boy has done. He probably thinks he himself will be a perfect dad... but cutting off family over perceived past slights is terribly cruel, and that’s not part of the recipe for ideal parenting. That idiot has NO idea how fortunate he was to have your love and care.