Cereal: I'm proud of myself because I did Zoom Pilates for the third time this week this morning, and walked to the PO to mail a package before a Zoom therapy session at 10 am. Plus I managed to cook last night, so I have leftover boudin and sautéed cabbage to eat for lunch.

That's awesome smonster! I have....eaten breakfast, called in to one meeting, and answered about one email.

Ugh, I got my period a full week early. That is some straight up BULLSHIT.

Although it explains why I impulse-bought sea salt caramel truffle ice cream at the grocery store this morning.

Seriously, though, let me reiterate. BULLSHIT.

Thqat is bullshit. I thought mine was going to be really early and it was a day late. After having major cramps and PMS for a week.

Seriously, menopause rocks. I know some women have a rough go of it, but I am delighted to be long past the monthly bother.

I'm glad to be done with the monthly Shark Week, but the hot flashes can freaking stop right now.

I'll be 49 next month, so I think that's about time for this nonsense to stop. Yeesh.

well the dr had said I would probably see my periods getting closer together and they are doing that, I'll be 47 this summer. I am not making any babies, I don't need this nonesense,

On the other hand I had a life time of highly erratic, mostly light periods so a couple of years of heavy-ish , closer together cycles (and it's 26-28 days right now) is not too bad I guess.

Seriously, menopause rocks.

So looking forward to it. I've been peri for 11 years. I'm done already.

I am in such a bad mood. As soon as I was moving around Matthew's mom was fussing because what are we going to have for dinner. I don't know I don't get home until 7 dinner is not my responsibility. Unless you want it to be and then we will eat at 9 and whatever I want to make

And then about Matthew being asleep at 8 bc she decided she wanted to do something this morning before 8 and he wasn't awake. Matthew doesn't get out of bed until 10 most days. She knows that .

Then...then it was "Matthew said you'd help me order shirts" for his brother's birthday. His mom isn't good with online ordering that's fine. But Matthew is a grown ass adult who can play video games all damn day which means he can order some shirts for his mom. She so doesn't knkww hat color or where she wants to get them and I am not using my day off to walk bet through ordering stuff .

I already ordered his sister in laws birthday present and her mother's day present because it was just easier and she knew exactly what to get

But every time there is something computer related Matthew wants me to do it for him. Also the fridge needs to be cleaned out and that is somehow my task as well.

And finally Dan Savage's advice to end relationships if there is too much of a mismatch with sex is something people should pay attention to. Just throwing that out there.

I need to buy new pants for work and some more short sleeve shirts because I'm tired of what I wore all summer and I was wearing sleeveless with a cardi over and I can't do that when it gets hotter. I'm feeling resentful everytime I need to spend money because I don't know what will happen by the end of the month and I want to keep as much as I can in case we get furloughed again or laid off. And if that doesn't happen then I want to take what I have saved and work on paying off debt