I'm freaked out, terrified, and really, really angry. I know he didn't relapse AT me (or at anyone). I 110% know that addiction is a disease and not a moral failing, and I would kick anyone's ass who suggested otherwise. But I am really really angry at him. But also terrified. Fuck.
That's the thrill of living in the Hellmouth! There's a veritable cornucopia of fiends and devils and ghouls to engage ... Pardon me for finding the glass half-full.
Giles ,'Same Time, Same Place'
Spike's Bitches 49: As usual, I'm here to help you, and I... are you naked under there?
Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Steph L. - Nov 14, 2019 6:31:44 am PST #6576 of 8213
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Steph L. - Nov 14, 2019 6:33:04 am PST #6577 of 8213
I look more rad than Lutheranism
I don't know what to do. I don't want this responsibility. His fucking wife should come home. I shouldn't have to deal with this.
lisah - Nov 14, 2019 6:34:07 am PST #6578 of 8213
Punishingly Intricate
Oh, Steph, that's so scary. I take it his wife's still out of town? Have you talked to her at least?
Steph L. - Nov 14, 2019 6:37:36 am PST #6579 of 8213
I look more rad than Lutheranism
She's out of town until Saturday. I haven't talked to her yet because yesterday he seemed to have everything under control. I mean, he had a plan, and he had friends staying with him, and every time I talked to him he was lucid.
I can't call her right now because I am sobbing.
sj - Nov 14, 2019 6:37:50 am PST #6580 of 8213
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Oh, Steph I'm sorry. Do you have the contact information for anyone that lives near him that you can send over there.
Steph L. - Nov 14, 2019 6:42:17 am PST #6581 of 8213
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Well, he said a friend is coming over in half an hour (or less, now). And I'm going to call him back soon. I'm going to tell him that he needs to go to the hospital. If the friend is there, hopefully I can talk to her.
JZ - Nov 14, 2019 6:57:07 am PST #6582 of 8213
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
I'm so sorry, Teppy. That's agonizing to deal with from afar. Definitely talk to his friend when she gets there, just so neither of you feels so alone.
amyth - Nov 14, 2019 7:01:34 am PST #6583 of 8213
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
I'm so sorry, Steph. It's horrible to feel so powerless to help someone you love. I hope you are able to get his friend to get him to the hospital.
Steph L. - Nov 14, 2019 7:04:26 am PST #6584 of 8213
I look more rad than Lutheranism
No answer when I called. I'm trying very very hard to not jump to a worst-case scenario, because he did say he was going to take a nap.
But I left a message, and if he doesn't call me back in 15 minutes, I'm calling again.
Steph L. - Nov 14, 2019 7:19:12 am PST #6585 of 8213
I look more rad than Lutheranism
No answer again. I am losing my goddamn mind.