askye -- Progressives do take a little getting used to. But it's worth it.

Thanks to all for the thoughts. It never ends.

Fred, add my good wishes in there, would you? I should have said before.

All love and rapid improvement ~ma to you, Fred.

Best possible outcome to you, Fred!

I think the glasses issue has been discovered. I had prisms in both lenses before and now only in the left. I still have to actually talk to the eye doctor but I hope it can be that simple.

Work is also worked out. Which is good because I got way too hot at work today. On the 23rd I'll move to men's big & tall. It's not commission based but they put me at the highest hourly rate they could which was generous.

Now Matthew needs a new job.

Hey Fred, I hope everything goes even better than expected.

Askye, glad to hear you've got good employers who want to keep you.

I keep popping in and reading and then popping out again without saying anything, which is not what I wanted to do, but things are kind of harrowing around here right now. I can't remember what I've said or haven't. Dad's over the pneumonia, but diagnosed with pulmonary fibrosis. There's no cure, there's the possibility of slowing the progression if he tries, but he doesn't seem to want to really try and he was diagnosed late because he avoids doctors as much as possible. All that and more doctor visits all the bloody time for everyone in our little nuclear family. Kara's health issues seem to boil down to migraines. Dizziness, etc., but we're not sure. At least, it doesn't feel to me like it answers everything. My health insurance has changed and now I have copays again. Have to have prior authorization for medications I've been on for years, now, and so have no diabetes or heart meds, despite having called in requesting refills a week ago. It's all just kind of discouraging, but it will get better. It always does.

I love you guys. You're a huge inspiration to me.

As you are to us, Deena.

That sounds like progress, askye. I have a lot of experience in that big & tall department! Although it always annoys me that it really is big or tall, people that are both like DH are still out of luck. How are things going with Matthew's mother?

{{Deena}} I won't start on the state of our health care system, because it is nothing but cruel and heartless. I keep hoping that it will change in my lifetime.

#1 son update. I have to take him for a second interview this morning. He went on this one yesterday and they said a decision in 3-5 days, then he was only home about an hour and they called to schedule the follow up this morning. So digits crossed. He has had a lot of interviews because he tests brilliantly on all the prelim stuff and is articulate and charming on the phone. In person, he just looks sickly. He is 6'6" and maybe 160 pounds. His clothes drape on him because he has to get big sizes to be long enough. The interviewers generally finish knowing he is absurdly capable, but something is likely red flagging him. I may go clothes shopping with him this weekend and see if I can help him look a little better. His hair is midway down his back, but he keeps it clean and tied up. He has a couple weeks worth of beard again, but that is like a full growth for him because it is super thick. Mostly it is tech stuff he is going for, so looks shouldn't matter, but my concern is they just think he is sick.

I don't know, just blathering here.

Hey Laura, poor grooming is taught to HR to be a red flag for workplace violence, so it may be the clothes. I would think they could see He was clean and neat and so not a worry, but they may also worry about drug addiction since he's so skinny. My niece said she was absolutely skinny when she was doing meth. Thankfully, she's been clean a long time now.

That came out really weird and abrupt. MOStly, all fingers and toes crossed they appreciate his brilliance and they're all a good fit for one another.

Thanks Scrappy and Laura.

Deena insurance stuff sucks.

Laura better fitting clothes might help. I hope he finds a job.

I'm looking forward to a new challenge but I I feel like I didn't do a good job of being the shoe specialist so this gives me a chance to have a new start.

Matthew's mom living here is rocky. I guess she walked to the bank this morning to open an account and didn't have a bill in her name with this address so they wouldn't open it. Somewhere around here is the house insurance bills with her name but I don't know where they are. She ststted to go through my stuff and I asked her not to and I'll find it.

There haven't been clear boundaries and so it's gone from "oh no I won't eat with y'all " to an expectation that she is being included in meals. She washes the dishes so that is nice and I'm trying ot to be grudge this. But she has no car so ahe is pretty much here all the time.

The library is within walking distance but she doesn't read well or have a dvd player so there are limits to what she can get. Although there are activities going on and I'm going to encourage her to go there and get a calendar.

Matthew has very little patience for her. On top of that he lifted more than he should at work and hurt his back and has hemrroids really bad. Plus his car isn't starting. He has missed most of this week of work. He missed all of last week.

So he is stuck in the house unless he is borrowing my car to run an errand. And he hasn't felt like moving much.

Our router quit working and I don't have money to spare to replace it so I need go to Spectrum to rent one from them. Honestly I need to get up and get over there because I have to work today and I don't know how long I'll have to wait.

My birthday is Sunday.

Matthew really needs to find another job. But that can be daunting. He is talking about getting a part time job instead of a full time one. With his back it's probably what he needs.

I feel like there is a lot of stuff I'm goong on that I am more concerned about than anyone else. Matthew takes a much more "it will work out" attitude. I'm wondering if how we deal with these things is going go be a deal breaker for our relationship but mostly I am ignoring that because I don't need that stress right now.

Sorry to vent. I'm just feeling overwhelmed because I've already run one errand today. Our clothes are still in 5 different places in the house instead of put away and it keeps getting put off and i should be working on that instead of typing this because I have to get ready and go to work in a few hours and get lunch before then as well.