Yeah, my friend (H) that you met, ND, used to frequent Borderline when she lived up there, and her mom still does (she's okay). She's been really shaken up all morning.

I'm so sorry, Glam and ND and Epic and everyone else affected by this violence. It's just horrifying.

I just don't have it in me right now to check.

Yeah, after I ascertained that I was very unlikely to know anyone who was there, I haven't been able to bring myself to read anything more about either this shooting or the Pittsburgh shooting, and it makes me sick that this happens so frequently now that I can actually think to myself, "Oh no, another one," and then just... stop thinking about it. It's become routine, and that is so deeply disturbing and fucked up.

Hugs to everyone affected by this. I'm so sorry.

Just found out that one of my part time employees directly knew at least one of the victims.

I'm so sorry, ND. ~ma to your employee.

I'm sick. Chills, slight fever, hacking cough, and a runny nose. I had lots of fun plans for this weekend (Mom's Birthday and my anniversary) and I think I'm going to have to cancel everything.

Well, that was a day. After a huge mess of a day yesterday (broken wheelchair, couldn't get cough meds filled), I was exhausted this morning, but I made it to my morning classes. Was sort of awake through them. (Luckily, I didn't have to lecture today -- the plan for today was mostly having them work on practice problems anyway.) Then I got a call from my doctor, that my blood test results from yesterday were really concerning, and that I could have pneumonia or some other infection, and she wanted me to go to the ER immediately to get some more blood work and a chest x-ray. So, I found someone to cover my afternoon class, then went to the ER. Got all the tests done, and I don't have pneumonia, or another infection, and I'm now back at, "Yeah, your body's being weird, but we don't think there's anything to be seriously concerned about? Here, try another cough medicine, and call us next week."

Also, my sister was flying in today to visit me anyway, so now she's here, and we're both exhausted (since I've been getting no sleep because cough, and she's been flying all over the country for work), so our visit this weekend might end up being mostly napping.

I'm sorry that you are going through this Hil. I hope that you can get some rest and your body will stop being so weird and heal.

Thanks. My sister and I had a low-key day -- slept late, went out to brunch, binge-watched Riverdale a bit, then I took a nap, then we went out to dinner at a Cajun place I just found that has a ton of vegan options. They even had a vegan cheesecake for dessert. I'm still coughing, but not as much as before, and my ribcage still hurts whenever I cough or breathe too deeply, but I'm feeling a bit better. No class on Monday because of Veterans Day, and I don't teach on Tuesdays anyway, so I can get a little more rest, too.

That sounds like a decent weekend. I hope the rest does you a world of good.

I celebrated Matthew's birthday. We got Indian and cheesecake and walked around downtown and I got mom a Christmas present. Today we went to his brother's.

After my weird anxiety attack on Monday I realized I'm frustrated with the managers at work, one issue has gone back since this past Feb. I bored because it is always going to be the same. And I hate living 2 places.

I like living with Mom and I like some of where we live but I miss Matthew and I hate going back and forth. Matthew could come up but he lives alone so it makes more sense for me to do the driving.

I made the decision to talk to work about a transfer. There are three stores within about half hour of here and then move in with Matthew based on the tranfer.

And it's freaking me out because it's change and I want to make sure I am making the right decision but I know there is no guarantee. I wish i could talk to someone but this. Not my therapist or my mom but a friend but I don't have that kind of relationship with anyone.

And I've never lived with a boyfriend before, not really, and it is just a lot of unknown.

I'm not going to say that living with someone is easy, because it has its own issues. BUT I am a big fan of having a full time mate. The good times are better when shared and the tough times are easier when shared. Obviously I don't know all the details about you and Matthew, but mostly it is deciding to make it work. You will have things you don't agree on, but if you can agree on how to handle those things you got it made.

And sorry, you never can be sure you are making a right decision, you can only be sure you are going to do your best to make it work.

Also, hugs.