I am trying to take care of myself. Mom is going up to see my brother and nephew for a week . I'm going to stock up on frozen dinners because I've learned I can cook dinner/do dishes or keep the rest of the house up but not both when I'm alone and frozen dinners are easier.

Also in January I'm going to start job hunting in Greenville or ask about transferring to the Greenville store and and move in with Matthew at some point. It's just getting harder to see him only on the weekends and even though I'm only there on weekends it is starting to feel more like my home than here.

I generally cook, but I bought a few of the Healthy Choice bowls to have on hand this summer. The couple I have tried were really good! I was encouraged by the short ingredient list. I get freaked out when I see a long list of unpronounceable ingredients. I added a bit of spice because I like things hot, but quick, easy, and tasty.

My bronchitis is still pretty bad, and I was up all night coughing, and I'm taking the day off from work. I hate taking the day off for being sick -- it feels like admitting that I can't really do my job.

People get sick! The ones who go to work sick and infect others should feel bad not the people who stay home.

Although I usually feel the same way.

No crown or bridge for me today. I jabril to get a consultation for a root canal. The putty they use to make the mold was cold and I had the stabbing pain I've been having. I cried. It wasnt that painful it was more embarrassment and frustration and a little pain. The dentist said it shouldn't hurt like that the way the tooth looked but said he still believed it hurt it just wasnt acting typical.

Bronchitis is nothing to sneeze at, Hil. I hope you feel better soon.

askye, it is good to see you making plans to move forward in this relationship and at a pace that works for you.

So the psychiatrist decided to try me on Celexa. She also strongly recommended therapy on the grounds that if I keep eliminating medications that will work for me, I may eventually run out of options.

Andi I highly recommend therapy. If you can find a good therapist. I've made so much progress because of mine. I find myself practicing things he talked about and encouraged me to do without realizing it at first.

I was going to clean my apartment today, because it really needs it, and my sister is coming to visit next weekend. I ended up sleeping all day instead. I guess I needed that more. I'm coughing a bit less than I was before.

Thank you for the encouragement, askye.

Hil, I am glad you are on the mend. Bronchitis is no joke.

Hil, rest is important.

I was up most of the night with terrible sciatica pain. It still hurts and nothing helps except hot baths, but I'm afraid I won't be able to physically get out of the tub and no one is home to help with that. I was so tired on the way home from dropping ltc off at school that I forgot to grab breakfast or turn on my audiobook.

sj, sciatica pain is the worst. I hope you got some relief today.

Tim's not!son got kicked out of his halfway house, and the reason he gave Tim is so obviously a lie that all I could do is laugh. The residents have assigned chores. Not!son said that "someone was out to get him" because they told him to clean the hallway, so he swept it with a broom, but he was supposed to mop it, so they kicked him out.

No one gets kicked out of a halfway house for one incidence of not mopping a hallway. No one. My guesses are, in order of likelihood: (1) he got in a fight (which is against the halfway house rules, which all residents are given when they move in), because he is a violent hothead who is angry at the world; (2) he started using/drinking again; or (3) he didn't do any of his chores, ever, for all the months he's been living there.

He doesn't have a car to live in this time, and I just don't care where he's living. He is 39 and a father of 2 little girls. I cannot believe he can't get his shit together enough to follow rules and hold down a job. (He's been working at Tim's company, and still is, as far as I know, but his attendance has been spotty even before he became homeless again, so who fucking knows if he'll make it to work now.) He thinks the world is out to get him yet simultaneously thinks the world owes him. What a manchild.

I honestly think he's going to end up back in jail or dead before the end of the year. I sure hope it's jail.