Played with Kaylee. Sun came out, and I walked on my feet and heard with my ears. I ate the bits, the bits stayed down, and I work. I function like I'm a girl. I hate it because I know it'll go away. The sun goes dark and chaos has come again. Bits. Fluids. What am I?!

River ,'War Stories'


Spike's Bitches 49: As usual, I'm here to help you, and I... are you naked under there?

Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Toddson - Aug 29, 2018 6:50:53 am PDT #4292 of 8234
Friends don't let friends read "Atlas Shrugged"

I'd seen some promos for the new Charmed, but I wasn't really interested. Maybe I'll take a look ....


meara - Aug 29, 2018 7:24:00 am PDT #4293 of 8234

Insurance is so ridiculous. But I am somewhat ashamed to say that after all the fuss I made about them forcing me to change my medication, the new one is actually working even better, I think!!


askye - Aug 29, 2018 10:28:58 am PDT #4294 of 8234
Thrive to spite them

I tried calling the company but if you pick the number for assistance it tells you that is an invalid selection.

My doctors office may be able to help. Not this month but maybe from now on. I don't have the spoons to deal with it.

Work only semi sucks right now. But something happened and the battery is nearly drained. And I made the mistake of going into McDonald's and it seems like someone ordered 20 or more meals because they keep putting food in bags and it isn't mine.


Hil R. - Aug 29, 2018 5:58:54 pm PDT #4295 of 8234
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l

Blah. I've been on a liquid fast all day, because of the tests that I'm having done tomorrow to try to see if they can figure out why I'm anemic, and I'm so hungry. And Facebook and Twitter both keep giving me ads for pizza.

I have apple juice. Apple juice is not pizza.


askye - Aug 29, 2018 6:50:41 pm PDT #4296 of 8234
Thrive to spite them

My therapist is always after me to celebrate victories and actually acknowledge victories and progress instead of brushing it off. Which is hard because I always feel like I should do better than I am.

But in everything that has happened today not once did I have one of the scary self harm images pop into my head. I have these pictures or little movies that just pop in my head at times of stress. I don't want to act on them but it's just there all the time, almost taunting me. And it becomes another layer of stress , trying to deal with them. It's like my brain takes in all the panic and fear and goes "hold my beer"...

Today that did not happen.

I'm also not looking forward to work (I should be asleep, instead of I'm continuing my de stressing before bed). Tomorrow will be kind of a grind but after work I'll go to Matthew's,. I have Sunday off and was thinking about going down there again but I'm going to stay home and kind of cocoon myself and prep for the week.


Laura - Aug 30, 2018 4:06:01 am PDT #4297 of 8234
Our wings are not tired.

Today that did not happen.

Yes, recognize and celebrate. Spend some time reflecting on your progress. It is real and you should be proud.


WindSparrow - Aug 30, 2018 2:01:45 pm PDT #4298 of 8234
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.

askye, you deserve to celebrate. That is real progress.

Hil, I wish you well with the butt scope.


Zenkitty - Aug 30, 2018 4:11:36 pm PDT #4299 of 8234
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.

For those who don't usually drop in to Natter, I posted a thing about my cursèd left leg.


Atropa - Aug 31, 2018 10:13:47 am PDT #4300 of 8234
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.

askye, how are you doing today?

Grrr, the eBay auction I want to snipe in two hours has 5 other watchers.


Hil R. - Aug 31, 2018 12:36:32 pm PDT #4301 of 8234
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l

My test went OK. I think they used too much of the anesthesia, though -- Steph picked me up and drove me home (thank you again), and then I ate some instant noodles and fell asleep for about six hours. Woke up just long enough to set my alarm clock for the next morning, and slept another ten hours. And felt groggy all day today.

The nurse told me that the doctor came in and talked to me right after I woke up, but I have no memory of that at all. But the nurse said that everything looked fine. Which, on the one hand, is good, but on the other hand, it still doesn't answer why I'm anemic.