Well, my day sucked. Possible TMI, but really, whatever. Went to a gynecologist appointment this morning, and realized that, unsurprisingly, anxiety attacks and pap smears are unmixy things. Started crying on the table (this has never happened to me before), and she didn't do the exam. Then went out for lunch (at a restaurant that I keep remembering as being better than it actually is), then came home and fell asleep. And slept for a few hours longer than I should have, and missed my appointment with my psychiatrist this afternoon.
Now I'm eating some chocolate. If it helps with Dementors, maybe it helps with this.
You totally deserve chocolate, Hil. I hope it helps.
"Chocolate" is never the wrong answer.
OK. Plan for tomorrow is to deal with the clothes on the floor in my bedroom, and to call my psychiatrist and apologize for missing the appointment and reschedule. This is a plan that I can do.
I'm sorry, Hil, but I'm glad you have a plan. That always helps.
I was hella productive today. I just finished a short course of steroids because of my asthma, and they always make me productive for some reason. My pain is better, but I'm also just less overwhelmed by life in general. I can see what needs to be done and actually feel capable of doing it. I really wish steroids were a long term solution.
The reason I'm not teaching this summer is because last semester was really stressful and I needed a break. So much for that.
Well, once I finish up with these appointments and clean the apartment, I'll be leaving town. Maybe then my stress levels will decrease.
Sorry to hear about the anxiety, Hil, please go easy on yourself
My doctor gave me super-Advil (can't remember the actual chemical but it's one of like three prescription painkillers I can take without breaking out into hives or throwing up) and steroid cream and OH MY GOD YOU GUYS DRUGS ARE MAGICAL. Like, I'm not pain-free, but it's down from an 8 to more like a 3 and I can DEFINITELY TOLERATE WEARING CLOTHES.
