Had to leave work early. Not sleeping. Don't feel good but pushed myself to show up and be "on". The result is now I am at the point where I am struggling to speak the words are all in my head and I can type them out but physical talking is a struggle

I got home and was able to talk to mom some but it was more on the "fire had her pretty" level of sentence construction than what I am typing now.

I am trying to recover from all of this and my nephew is going to come over and spend the night .

I would ask mom to say its not a good time but she has made it clear she won't say no to him even if I need space.

This weather is hell on my sinuses. And I ran out of Sudafed, and I really don't want to have to go out and buy some more when I'm feeling this cruddy. So I'm whiny.

That's got to be tough, askye.

Nephew ended up not coming over. I feel horrible but I needed it. I had it quiet all day and finally was able to watch some TV last night.

Work called and asked me to come I and I had to say no. But my therapist knows someone local who makes weighted blankets so I am going to contact her.

I also cancelled my plans with Matthew. I am not sure if the relationship can last. He is now working 6 days a week . He has Sunday off but I don't always have Sunday off. There are other factors but I don't want you essentiaky be in a long distance relationship with someone I live that close to.

I just want to cry. My primary care NP gave me cough syrup with codeine, after extracting the promise that I would not combine it with the whisky that I had been self-medicating with. First dose of codeine, worked. Second dose of codeine, I woke up two hours later with a really intense coughing fit. Ok so I let the codeine work itself out of my system then went back to whisky and added some dark chocolate. It was helping. Less coughing today, so silly me, I thought I could nap. Nope. Started coughing again, whisky didn't stop it, there was gurgling in every breath, too noisy to sleep even if I wasn't coughing. Then I had a coughing fit so hard I threw up.

Oh, god, honey. Usually cough syrup with codeine is the magic key. I'm so sorry!

And just to add insult to injury now that I am sitting up, no coughing.

Andi, did you try Tessalon pearls? If not, ask your NP about them. They work really well. I'm sorry your cough is being so persistent.

Andi when I had the coughing from tell 3years ago I had to take cough syrup with Vicodin.

Also it helped to keep rooms as warm and humid as possible. It cut down on the irritation of my throat. I had humidifiers going and a pot of water on the stove.

I went through codeine cough syrup and tessalon pearls before the Vicodin medicine.