Self-improvement is scary. I bought a set of bicyle-ish pedals that I can use when sitting in a chair. The box arrived last week, I just opened it last night. I scolded myself for taking so long to open it, then countered myself with "I could have left them in the box, this is progress, back off, brain." Now that they're out and I can see them, my "Oooh, new toy" self will want to play with them.

Also, I just did a bunch of research on Imposter Syndrome, and I had a moment of "Hello, thing hiding behind the anxiety, you do have a name." When you have a thing's name you have power over it. Just as well I'm going on vacation next week, I'll have time for staring at the inside of my brain and corralling the skittering creatures into a manageable place.

Told my therapist today that I had shared what he said about spirals and that it had been helpful to some. I joked that he was helping people he hadn't met and he did this goofy fist pump and declared "because I'm badass". It was rather dorky.

Also went for allergy testing . I'm allergic to dust mites , trees, cats and dogs. The doctor told me about my options and I asked what if I didn't do anything since I don't seem to notice a problem. He had this look and said "your nose is raw inside" I guess my used it. So allergy mattress and pillow covers soon with zyrtec and 2 nasal sprays are now part of my life.

I'm headed to see my doc. I'm glad I have my good crutches from my foot surgery a couple of years ago. The pain Judy Kris getting worse... with the muscle relaxant, Vicodin, and ibuprofen. Ugh.

I'm so sorry you're hurting, Suzi. I hope the doctor can do something to fix it.

Dorky!doc sounds nice, askye.

In me news, I hate my boss, I hate my job, I haven't heard back about a second interview with the place where I interviewed last week, and I'm very much sunk in "I'm going to be working retail for shit pay for the rest of my life" mode.

Send cake.

Quick pain relief wishes for Suzi, and cake with a side order of job response for Amy.

Shoves an entire cake through the interwebs to Amy.

Hi, juliana! How is your toddler? Mine is currently throwing a tantrum for no reason.

I'm sorry ltc was hangry. Peanut is rather clingy today, but is otherwise her usual energetic self. I really miss the days of two naps. I can barely get anything done during her one.

Job~ma for Amy and everyone else who needs it (although I need to reserve some for me, because I need to get out of bartending).

Suzi, I hope the doc is helpful.

Also! I need to think of a name for my bakery - my friend Tony is opening a retail store, and he wants me to sell a few things there. I am, of course, at a total loss as to names. Thursday's Child is the only thing I can think of, and that's a little... esoteric. (I was born on a Thursday, "Thursday's Child has far to go", my treats hopefully help you get a little farther.)

Doc thinks it is purely muscular. Prescription for valium as a muscle relaxant, course of prednisone, and a referral to PT for dry needling. So... no quick fix. Thankfully my crutch helps me get around better than i had been this morning.

We have been trying to run a few necessary errands and I'm exhausted. Still not home yet.

Amy, I wish you get good job news ASAP. Pour yourself a Moscow mike when you get home.

Juliana, what kind of treats?

I know there is more but I have the memory of a goldfish right now.

My piriformis muscle can jump off a bridge