Dammit, this was the quote in the top right and now I want to barf again.
Please...Wesley...why can't I stay?
Fred, 'A Hole in the World'
Because fucking patriarchy, Fred.
I'm so sorry, Kalshane. I hope it's better than you expect.
Spidra, welcome back.
I don't want to be around any white people I don't know votes Dem, Like none. I am not going to church anymore, I am going to find something to do in marginalized communities, something.
I definitely want to get involved somehow, BLM, I don't know. I want specifically to support the work minorities are doing. And this is about me, not you, Rebecca, please don't take it as challenging how you feel or what you are going to do - I am ashamed of myself for taking the easy way out and not confronting probable Trump voters in my extended family. And so, the first simple (but not easy) step I can take is to come out to them. My mom will try to stop me (it's her side of the fam) but I'm not asking for permission or support from her. I am asking for it from my sibs but I will fully understand if they can't do it. And from there I hope to open up a larger conversation.
White people definitely suck.
White men doubly so. I see people like me - white men in their fifties+ - with suits and ties and they are just coded in my lizard brain as "The Enemy."
Getting in touch with my anger. Had to stifle the impulse to yell at some midwestern tourists to get out of my City and go home and eat Applebees. And it's not like they were wearing Trump hats or anything - pure mindless prejudice. But the anger's there.
Oh Kalshane that sucks. So sorry about the car but glad your wife and kid are ok!
Because nothing says "working together to stop the mayhem" like "I don't want to be around anyone who isn't like me and I really dislike that entire genre of people". Not like we've never heard anything like that before.
{{{{{Kalshane & family}}}}}}
Hi Spidra, welcome back.
David, not all mid-westerners are evil. I'm only a little evil. And my white-middle-aged brother was a big Hillary supporter.
I'm still trying to grasp the implications and some are too scary to think about.
But I guess my immediate thing is when the ACA is repealed does that mean everyone loses insurance right away...or is it an unknown thing. I'm trying not to panic but I need to figure this out and I don't know what to do...apply,don't bother
I've got sob uncontrollably xcovered.
I'm cool with rage, and at most every white person getting a major hate side eye today. It's going to take a few days before I crawl out of the Slough of Despond.
Be it rational or not, I feel the same pain and disbelief that I have when someone close to me has died.
I am just not ready to think positively yet.
It took me forever to fall asleep this morning. I have not taken an Ambien or Xanax, or anything remotely similar for over 11 months, but yesterday and today, I am grindingly, achingly jealous of anyone who can safely find temporary pharmaceutical oblivion.
I ate my feelings last night with my BFF, and had to resort to putting on a classical music ambient video to get my brain to calm down. They were pretty goddamn weak substitutes to combat election brain.
And one of the first things I did, after brushing my teeth, and making tea, was to block my great-aunt who was laughing at one of my "This is actively awful and painful" posts this morning. I'd unfollowed her a while ago, but it was all I could to to just block her, and rain down a perfect storm of Fuck You And The Racist Horse You Rode In On.
I've been trying to reblog helpful things on Tumblr, and reassure the kids who follow me that there will be adults who stand with them. And I've been trying to focus on work, because I'm swamped as usual.
But ... Jesus. I'm still numb. I think I'll hit horrified and angry this weekend.
White men doubly so. I see people like me - white men in their fifties+ - with suits and ties and they are just coded in my lizard brain as "The Enemy."
Yeah I had a brief moment of that. But I'm in California, the land of didn't vote for That Man. So I let it go. Then I realized the other danger. So my school is super progressive with a social justice mission. We've spent all day talking to our mostly immigrant, lots of illegal student population and it's been emotionally exhausting. Kids are afraid of deportation or my bangledeshi kids are afraid of being beaten up. One of my sikh students stopped wearing a turban this year to keep himself safe. Students talked about leaving El Salvador or Honduras because it wasn't safe and now they don't feel safe here.
One of the other schools on my campus has a walkout and our students talked about joining them or not and had lots of productive discussions. And the very small number of trump supporting kids were feeling, I think, shut down.
But the most difficult thing for me personally today was when K told me that she was walking to get something from the car and a bunch of kids (from one of the other schools on our site) threw trash at her and called her racist for being white.
I just can't.
