Hello Buffistas! Back after a couple days of all family all the time.
The memorial went so well. My part of mass was the eulogy, which resulted in many laughs and compliments from everyone. I was stressed in advance because I had zero experience of speaking to a crowd, but when I got up there I saw a mass of people I had known all my life it was just easy. The flood of support and love erased my fears. The biggest laugh was from my group of 5 cousins and their families that we grew up with but haven't seen in one place together in decades. Their Mom and mine were very strong liberal politically active women. My shoutout to Mom's "beloved Democrats" brought the laugh, and afterwards they told me that they were grateful our Moms were spared seeing the current horror show.
Small town loving support also included us being told that the fire department paid for the catered food that was delivered because of the many years of family support. Then the funeral director told us that his services were free and that he would only bill the direct costs of the newspaper and other minor stuff because of our long family history with them.
So, feeling the love.
So glad it went well, Laura. And so lovely how many people are looking after your family.
We're staying with loligo, whom some of you may know from LJ/DW, whom I've known since - well, 14 years! - but never met. It's so strange to be an internet axe murder at this late date!
Yay Loligo! I have known her for 20 years, since my old XF days. I have in fact met her IRL and she is not an axe murderer. Do tell her I say hi.
I'm making my grilled cheese. The toasting bread is perfect, but the raclette has a too subtle flavor for a good grilled cheese. Perhaps a medium-sharp cheddar.
allergy headache and sinus pressure and hot flashes. DO NOT LIKE.
Laura, sounds like it was exactly what everyone needed it to be.
I need to clean my house. I don't wanna clean. But the cathair must be kept at bay.
I need a caregiver. I am too stupid sometimes. So I don't think I was having hot flashes, I think I was crashing from low blood sugar. I apparently need a reminder to eat food first thing if I sleep past noon. coffee alone will not help, in fact, will harm. same goes for taking meds. Also don't think I ate enough yesterday. not even sure what I ate. A larabar, and some cherries, I know I had those. A yogurt. and I think I had a grilled cheese and some egg and quinoa breakfast bites. so maybe like 1200 calories, that is on the low side for a day with the gym, but not really horrible I mean, I have fast stores. anyone I hope this was just low blood sugar - was having waves of nausea, then mild anxiety, then some dizziness, then hands and feet started tingling. I am having some dry honey nut cheerios and I had some frozen grapes. really nothing sounds good and I keep belching and I am hot (ice pack on my head). but then chilly.
I swear this feels like food poisoning, but no throwing up.
also also, I swear I was getting calls from my pharmacy this week, but I just went to pick up meds and they show I picked up on the 11th. I do remember getting them recently, but then I took my last pill in this bottle this morning. So I just got the bottle from the trash and the date on it is 7/16, so where is the bottle I got on the 11th. I no this is not helped by whatever is going on in paragraph above, but I feel like I am going crazy.
Sorry to stream of consciousness my meltdown here, but I can't really call my parents crying in a state like this, they don't really get anxiety/panic attacks and they' d freak out and want to take me to dr and I am 90% sure that if I just keep steadily eating this sugary carby goodness at a slow and steady rate I will be ok soon.
