We are officially bagging on the swim lesson, so I'm taking the kids for a walk by the beach later while Cody gets some work done from home, well my sister's home anyways.

I hate that feeling that I'm a failure and thst every choice, large or small, forces me to choose whether to disappoint this person or that one because I am the instrument through which life let's them down.

I'm so sorry, Maria. So hard to deal with stuff on so little sleep.

I feel like I should go to Nat'l Night Out because I in theory support building police/community interaction but that means going out nad I largely donwanna.

They didn't really do anything, Burrell, it's just that every single time I have tried to log in to their web site to see my account status since they "upgraded" I've gotten a "we're having technical difficulties, please try again later". I have had difficulty just getting information from them ever since they bought my loan. I feel pretty certain that that's intentional and they are probably overcharging me for something, but I can't get to my account info to check their numbers and the paper statements they send me do not have much info on them.

I got a notice that someone else is buying my loan, or taking it over somehow, so I am hopeful I will be able to get information better out of them. If I can find that notice again, which I couldn't do last night. That one's on me.

Some days you want to bite peoples' faces off and you have to smile instead.

Today is that day.

We are doing this giant shift in how things are done, and we've basically established that no one has any real grasp of change management, plus we have personality conflicts, plus we have cultural conflicts, plus we have to have meetings at 7 in the morning which is a ME CONFLICT.

From beneath you, it devours.

I hate that feeling that I'm a failure and thst every choice, large or small, forces me to choose whether to disappoint this person or that one because I am the instrument through which life let's them down.

Oh, I know that one. And I have hardly any obligations! You have lots, you can't do everything!

And now we're arguing about the purpose of the meeting.

Can you refuse to join meetings with no clear purpose or agenda?

I would like to understand why my cat only wants to party between 5 and 6am.

When I first got my cat, she had been living in a dorm, and she seemed to want to party between 1 am - 2 am, but she eventually got over it.

I am sorry Maria, Burrell, Dana and others who seem to be having sucky days.

I don't even know how people have families and obligations, because I can barely take care of me and my cat. Possibly if your life partner shoulders part of the load it is easier, but IRL I don't really know anyone in a good life partner situation.

Not even on task 3 and I am moving stuff around

Mac to band camp
Electricians at my house for work
Get outfit together
Errand to $$ store for GISHWHES items
Mac from band camp
Grocery store with mac for GISHWHES stuff I need him to take a picture of me
Fence people at house
Start bread for GISHWHES
Made up for another GISHWHES picture
Mac to reading class
Bake bread
Mac from reading class
pack Mac for trip (leaves tomorrow, early morning flight) to Uncle Gary's

Laser in the eye like it ain't no thang is the most metal thing ever.

Aw, I've never gotten to have a most metal thing ever. I feel nearly as badass as Christopher Lee.

That's a high bar!