Likewise, Sean. And Nora.

Hugs DX! So good to see you. And everyone else. It makes this easier.

So one of my memories of ita on the board. Not here, but I think TT, or WX before we started posting pictures of ourselves. She posted something about getting her hair cut and gave a length in milimeters and someone else asked if she meant centimeters.

I don't think I responded, but I knew what she meant. I hadn't seen a picture of ita at that point but I knew how she wore her hair. Very very short and dyed blonde. The rest of her was vague.

It's a weird thing to remember but it's always stuck with me, I think because she was particular about her hair and I'd always wanted to shave my hair that short.

I've been trying to figure out what to watch in her honor tonight, and I think I'm going to settle on Orlando Bloom elfiness. Which, since I don't have copies of LotR at the moment, it will have to be Desolation of Smaug.

I do this thing, it's kinda dorky (OK, it's VERY dorky), where I award myself productivity points as motivation to get things done I could theoretically procrastinate or to stick with good habits. As I reach certain point levels, I either give myself a small reward or pledge to donate to some worthy cause at the end of the month. This year my worthy cause of choice is Heifer, and this month my levels are going to be shares of a goat. I will donate them in ita's memory, and I will think of her as I work out and write and try to make myself a stronger and better person.

I love that, Susan.

I keep feeling like I need to try goat one day. As in a meal.

Aaaaand, the sickbadwrong part of me is thinking "Susan should send this month's goat to Amy! Two problems solved!"

HAHAHAHAHA!

Amy, if you hear bleating out the window, IGNORE IT.

Ha, amych!

I think goat is the only commonly eaten land animal I've never tried. I've had lamb, rabbit, venison, even alligator, but I can't remember even having the opportunity to taste goat.

I'm sorry to ask but I have to because I have no spoons. I'm living on borrowed spoons. I will never be out of spoon debt.

I need someone to spearhead a difficult project. I would like to have a book made for ita's family. I think they're not truly aware of how deeply ita affected so many people.

I need someone to collect photographs of ita, and people's favorite memories of her. I can do the layout and have it printed and bound into a book for them, but I can't do the collecting.

It would involve reaching out to the Krav folks, and io9 folks, and whomever I have forgotten.

Could someone(s) do this? I can't. I really wish I could. I'm so sorry. I'm just not that far out of the clear from the ECT treatments and hospital and I'm having a difficult time dealing in general, and this has pushed me to a point I can't do this myself in an organized fashion.

I'm really sorry to ask. I want this done for her mother, father, and sister, but I'm spoon less. I'm sorry to be dramatic. I'm tired.