I am not angry. There is just a big hole. An empty space where she should be. And that gaping hole keeps making me sad all over again.
Buffy ,'Chosen'
ita's thread
A place where we can talk about ita, miss ita, and share information about memorials. The hugging started over here in Natter.
And her sleeping with a stuffed moose.
Oh, man, I'd forgotten about the moose. I imagine it being enormous, almost as big as her.
I won't know what to not click on.
Oh Raq, thank you for providing a much-needed laugh.
I first crossed paths with ita on Table Talk, making fun of phony psychics with phony Jamaican accents in the "Miss Cleo, Call Me Now!" thread. I don't recall whether she pointed me to the Buffy thread or if I found my way on my own shortly thereafter, but she's figured prominently in my experience of the community ever since. It's been a great privilege to have know her for the past 14 years (too few!).
I've been looking for my photos from the Wolfram & Hart Annual Review from ten years ago this evening, and finally turned up a couple. Here are shots of ita with her team of security guards and bonus Allyson:
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I've talked to Gudanov, so he knows.
I have started a post and failed to finish many times. Five beers and I'm almost brave enough to say things, but not quite.
I had not interacted with ita for a long time, but she has always loomed large in my mental landscape. She always will.
There is just a big hole. An empty space where she should be.
This.
Hi Tom! Hi!
...oh wait, you're right there. (I'm with Nora and Tom. That may have been said in this thread already. I may be drinking wine from a pink cup.)
{{{Tom}}} Much love to you and Nora and Sarah. I'm glad you're all together tonight.
I don't have any specific ita stories, but I loved her willingness to engage with anyone and everyone, to challenge when necessary but also make them feel like part of the community.
Reading the threads over at IO9 it's striking to see that she was just as much an integral presence there as she was here. I guess it shouldn't unexpected, knowing what he know about her, but it's still awe-inspiring to see just how many lives she managed to touch.
I keep thinking how much less fun it is going to be to watch the next season of Teen Wolf without knowing what ita thinks of it.