I just hate that this is replacing her in my brain. This "tragedy" which just feels so stupid to say.
'Objects In Space'
ita's thread
A place where we can talk about ita, miss ita, and share information about memorials. The hugging started over here in Natter.
Another long-absentee checking in. I saw the news on Facebook this morning, and all day this community has been at the very forefront of my thoughts. Such a shock. Such a loss.
I am not angry. There is just a big hole. An empty space where she should be. And that gaping hole keeps making me sad all over again.
And her sleeping with a stuffed moose.
Oh, man, I'd forgotten about the moose. I imagine it being enormous, almost as big as her.
I won't know what to not click on.
Oh Raq, thank you for providing a much-needed laugh.
I first crossed paths with ita on Table Talk, making fun of phony psychics with phony Jamaican accents in the "Miss Cleo, Call Me Now!" thread. I don't recall whether she pointed me to the Buffy thread or if I found my way on my own shortly thereafter, but she's figured prominently in my experience of the community ever since. It's been a great privilege to have know her for the past 14 years (too few!).
I've been looking for my photos from the Wolfram & Hart Annual Review from ten years ago this evening, and finally turned up a couple. Here are shots of ita with her team of security guards and bonus Allyson:
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I've talked to Gudanov, so he knows.
I have started a post and failed to finish many times. Five beers and I'm almost brave enough to say things, but not quite.
I had not interacted with ita for a long time, but she has always loomed large in my mental landscape. She always will.
There is just a big hole. An empty space where she should be.
This.
Hi Tom! Hi!
...oh wait, you're right there. (I'm with Nora and Tom. That may have been said in this thread already. I may be drinking wine from a pink cup.)
{{{Tom}}} Much love to you and Nora and Sarah. I'm glad you're all together tonight.