lol, msbelle.

I was given half a xanax by someone at work because today is incredibly stressful, and I realized that possibly anxiety is the only thing keeping me going, ever? Because the stress is gone, but now I can't seem to think of a reason to stay awake, at all. Not sleeping is a total waste of time.

I realized that possibly anxiety is the only thing keeping me going, ever?

I am often fueled by anxiety, raaaaage, and caffeine, and nothing else.

I am often fueled by anxiety, raaaaage, and caffeine, and nothing else.

I so get this. Though my anxiety often trumps my rage, but yeah.

(That really belonged in Natter, sorry.)

I think of stress/anxiety being the only thing holding me up like internal water pressure is the only thing holding flowers up. When it all drains away, I collapse.

I would like to donate to the scholarship fund, too, when it's ready. That's a wonderful thing.

Anxiety does the exact opposite for me. When it really kicks in, I can barely move.

That's me, too, sj. Anxiety paralyzes me and turns me into the world's worst procrastinator.

Seeing her parents tomorrow is going to break me, I'm afraid.

You will probably all be broken together. That can be comforting in its own way.

Have I mentioned how much I love the scholarship fund? It's a wonderful idea. I plan to make it a regular destination for donations for a long long time.

msbelle, I keep thinking but not posting the same thing. I even slur a little in my head although, honest, not drunk.

Once it's set up, I'll donate myself and help spread the word on this to fandom and to the Women in Tech community.

Same here.

You're still smart and resourceful, like all have said. This is the kind of thing that takes every single brain cell and resource to deal with.

You wouldn't be normal if that didn't upset you, Allyson. Hi, ODeck! Besides my contribution, which is always gonna be smaller than I would wish, I'll diary about ita and the scholarship fund on Daily Kos...won't quite be an Olbermann tribute, but I have learned from the best.

Allyson, you have the most beautiful hair in the history of ever. Also I send all kinds of strength~ma to you.