I realized that possibly anxiety is the only thing keeping me going, ever?
I am often fueled by anxiety, raaaaage, and caffeine, and nothing else.
That's my girl... That's my good girl.
Kaylee ,'Serenity'
ita's thread
A place where we can talk about ita, miss ita, and share information about memorials. The hugging started over here in Natter.
Steph L. - Jan 22, 2015 8:29:55 am PST #1074 of 3157
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
amyth - Jan 22, 2015 8:34:14 am PST #1075 of 3157
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
I am often fueled by anxiety, raaaaage, and caffeine, and nothing else.
I so get this. Though my anxiety often trumps my rage, but yeah.
(That really belonged in Natter, sorry.)
Zenkitty - Jan 22, 2015 8:44:35 am PST #1076 of 3157
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
I think of stress/anxiety being the only thing holding me up like internal water pressure is the only thing holding flowers up. When it all drains away, I collapse.
I would like to donate to the scholarship fund, too, when it's ready. That's a wonderful thing.
sj - Jan 22, 2015 8:45:40 am PST #1077 of 3157
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Anxiety does the exact opposite for me. When it really kicks in, I can barely move.
SailAweigh - Jan 22, 2015 9:10:16 am PST #1078 of 3157
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb
That's me, too, sj. Anxiety paralyzes me and turns me into the world's worst procrastinator.
-t - Jan 22, 2015 9:13:48 am PST #1079 of 3157
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
Seeing her parents tomorrow is going to break me, I'm afraid.
You will probably all be broken together. That can be comforting in its own way.
Have I mentioned how much I love the scholarship fund? It's a wonderful idea. I plan to make it a regular destination for donations for a long long time.
msbelle, I keep thinking but not posting the same thing. I even slur a little in my head although, honest, not drunk.
P.M. Marc - Jan 22, 2015 9:23:12 am PST #1080 of 3157
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear
Once it's set up, I'll donate myself and help spread the word on this to fandom and to the Women in Tech community.
Same here.
You're still smart and resourceful, like all have said. This is the kind of thing that takes every single brain cell and resource to deal with.
erikaj - Jan 22, 2015 9:55:08 am PST #1081 of 3157
Always Anti-fascist!
You wouldn't be normal if that didn't upset you, Allyson. Hi, ODeck! Besides my contribution, which is always gonna be smaller than I would wish, I'll diary about ita and the scholarship fund on Daily Kos...won't quite be an Olbermann tribute, but I have learned from the best.
Glamcookie - Jan 22, 2015 10:09:01 am PST #1082 of 3157
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister
Allyson, you have the most beautiful hair in the history of ever. Also I send all kinds of strength~ma to you.
Strix - Jan 22, 2015 10:34:26 am PST #1083 of 3157
A dress should be tight enough to show you're a woman but loose enough to flee from zombies. — Ginger
I have an Odeck account, Alllyson, though I mostly lurk, but I can and will write up info once the scholarship fund is set up. I love the idea of a scholarship.
Jesus, I had a psychiatrist appt yesterday right before an F2F interview for a corporate gig, and I talked to my psych about ita for a good fifteen minutes and keep saying "I can't cry because I have this interview." And then about my FIL, and the same thing.
I am not in denial, but I AM angry still, and will be for a long time. And I keep forgetting and then I remember at some weird geeky thing I read or see, and it hits me again.
Is there an address to which we may send sympathy cards or such to ita's family? I understand that it should not be publicly disseminated, but I feel deeply that I wish to send a note.