Anger rarely presents for me. I stick in the numb, for about forever.
Gunn: We open a can of Machiavelli on his ass. Harmony: It's Matchabelli, Einstein, and it doesn't come in a can.
'Soul Purpose'
ita's thread
A place where we can talk about ita, miss ita, and share information about memorials. The hugging started over here in Natter.
Laura - Jan 22, 2015 4:56:38 am PST #1044 of 3157
Our wings are not tired.
Tom Scola - Jan 22, 2015 4:58:11 am PST #1045 of 3157
Mr. Scola’s wardrobe by Botany 500
I'm not sure if I'm really past denial yet.
Atropa - Jan 22, 2015 5:08:27 am PST #1046 of 3157
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.
I might move past 'numb' once I'm past the two weeks of emotional black hole of the anniversary of my mom's passing and birthday. I kinda doubt it, tho'.
Kate P. - Jan 22, 2015 5:09:00 am PST #1047 of 3157
That's the pain / That cuts a straight line down through the heart / We call it love
Yeah, I think I'm mostly stuck in denial. It's such an odd feeling, to know that she's gone, and yet to also be able to go back and see her words anytime I want. Her words were how I knew her, and they're still there. In fact, it occurred to me recently that I ought to start watching SPN again (I've only seen the first two seasons, I think) so I can read the SPN thread and see more new posts from her. ...Perhaps not the healthiest way to deal, but I find the idea comforting.
JZ - Jan 22, 2015 5:11:02 am PST #1048 of 3157
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
I have thoughts about using the anger to do something practical (among other things, there's an upcoming event at my campus that touches on a lot of the issues ita faced), but I'm not sure what thread they'd belong in - this is a remembering and loving thread, Natter is multi-topic and wandering, Bitches is a small subset. Maybe Business, or Great Write Way, or use the FB group?
Steph L. - Jan 22, 2015 5:14:13 am PST #1049 of 3157
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
The O Deck people have mentioned us (in the comments), which is a little weird, except for the fact that I'm doing the exact same thing, thus creating a whole Inception of references to ita's communities: [link]
JZ - Jan 22, 2015 5:29:18 am PST #1050 of 3157
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
From that remembrance thread:
I'd forgotten she knew people in the industry. She was a stuntswoman wasn't she?
See, I vaguely remember something about that. This is that larger than life thing and it is more pronounced when you start piecing together aspects of her life as a whole.
Ah ha ha! She'd love that. I hope she's lurking from within.
Nora Deirdre - Jan 22, 2015 5:35:20 am PST #1051 of 3157
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
t waves Hi, O-deckers!
JenP - Jan 22, 2015 5:42:50 am PST #1052 of 3157
Yeah, I think I'm mostly stuck in denial. It's such an odd feeling, to know that she's gone, and yet to also be able to go back and see her words anytime I want. Her words were how I knew her, and they're still there.
That's where I am.
I've really appreciated reading the couple of links over to O-Deck. There's something really touching about knowing something of this other group of people who had such appreciation and admiration for ita. There are so many of those in the world that I'll never see; it's nice to see this one.
Sophia Brooks - Jan 22, 2015 5:42:57 am PST #1053 of 3157
Cats to become a rabbit should gather immediately now here
That picture of her with Colin's Little Man just killed me again- they had such a beautiful friendship.
Also hello O-deckers! I love that you love her too.