They how do we start getting what we deserve?
I wish I knew!
I wear the cheese. It does not wear me.
Cheese Man ,'Chosen'
Natter 73: Chuck Norris only wishes he could Natter
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
-t - Sep 25, 2014 5:02:11 pm PDT #6997 of 30000
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
sarameg - Sep 25, 2014 5:02:49 pm PDT #6998 of 30000
Lee, they like to hang out on my parents' front porch furniture. They're tiny,hungry dinosaurs. STG, they're plotting something. What, no idea. Meepmeep is a mockery.
Lee - Sep 25, 2014 5:17:44 pm PDT #6999 of 30000
The feeling you get when your brain finally lets your heart get in its pants.
Clearly.
SuziQ - Sep 25, 2014 5:22:46 pm PDT #7000 of 30000
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
I made gluten free cupcakes for K-Bug's classmates. Pretty tasty if I do say so. Gave some to my hair dresser too.
Really not thrilled with having a bald spot. It is almost the diameter of a penny. Two more weeks of stress.
Ginger - Sep 25, 2014 5:30:00 pm PDT #7001 of 30000
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda
I saw a road runner run across the road earlier and it didn't go meep meep. I feel lied to
I'd feel lied to if it didn't run through a tunnel painted on rock.
I don't know what I deserve, but I think I deserve a little better than this, and I know y'all do.
DavidS - Sep 25, 2014 6:15:07 pm PDT #7002 of 30000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
You deserve more than a little better, Ginger.
§ ita § - Sep 25, 2014 6:35:50 pm PDT #7003 of 30000
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
I know it doesn't work this way, but when I find myself exploding on the shoulder of near-strangers (they have ONE job to do--why is biology so complicated and fragile), and people I barely know (thanks,J! are going out of their way to make things plausibe--I gave up things already. I gave up on falling in love. I gave up on being a big brain. I gave up on children...was that it? Was I too selfish? I would kill to be taken care of right now, of knowing I could explode and someone would stop me from scattering the pieces, but how can I not feel that ship is sailing faster and faster away? ANd I'm left with no autonomy, weak will, and n ot enough to get by on my own.
I would give back half the larks I had in uni. They just make me feel more miserable now, i stead of warming the cockles of my heart.
And forward just looks dark and echoey almost silent, because even my best shits, when I turn me uo to 120% and pretend life isn't miserable, it's not enough to sell a stranger.
Not nice enough, not good enough, not in enough, not bright enough, not enough.
WE'll see how long that stays up.
erikaj - Sep 25, 2014 7:00:57 pm PDT #7004 of 30000
Always Anti-fascist!
I'm sorry it's all so hard, ita. Hope something breaks for you soon.
bon bon - Sep 25, 2014 7:07:57 pm PDT #7005 of 30000
It's five thousand for kissing, ten thousand for snuggling... End of list.
ita, a friend of mine just got in to see Andy Charles -- do you know this guy? He's pretty excited about new therapies that will come out in a year or so, says like three pharma companies are racing to bring it to market.
Strix - Sep 25, 2014 8:10:19 pm PDT #7006 of 30000
A dress should be tight enough to show you're a woman but loose enough to flee from zombies. — Ginger
Was I too selfish? I would kill to be taken care of right now, of knowing I could explode and someone would stop me from scattering the pieces, but how can I not feel that ship is sailing faster and faster away? ANd I'm left with no autonomy, weak will, and n ot enough to get by on my own.
Not nice enough, not good enough, not in enough, not bright enough, not enough.
NO. It's not because you were "too selfish" or "not X enough."
It's not because you have "weak will." It's stupid biology, and you're doing what you can about it. It's not enough, but that's because of science.
I understand these feelings, because you're in constant pain AND you are fucking depressed and anxious. Would AD's or anti-anxiety meds be contraindated for any of your other meds? I wish to the PTB that I lived close enough to be a patient advocate for you, and help you out. If you ever need me to make calls for you, and get shit done, all you have to do is get ahold of me.
I ADMIRE you. Always have. Still do. You are worthy of admiration and love and friendship and help, no matter what choices you made about children -- THAT doesn't make you culpable for what your body does.
_____________________
quester, much-ma for your niece.