I hope the patches I sent were some help, at least.

Absolutely. I have the much preferable position of just because I can band-aid it doesn't mean you're doing your job. Thanks infinitely.

You do deserve it

They how do we start getting what we deserve?

I am sorry about the job stress and the failure of people to realize how awesome people are.

I saw a road runner run across the road earlier and it didn't go meep meep. I feel lied to

That's good to know.

quester, sending much~ma for your niece. How scary!

Ended up eating ~2/3 of the duck, but it was a small duck, really, and I went for my run. A short one, but I made the mileage my training plan requires and evaded zombies and even kept my heart rate in the arbitrary zones I set, so, successful on several fronts. And broke in my new shoes, which are a tiny bit tight in the toe but I expect stretching, and I am loving the lightweight breathable uppers.

Now for wine and Project Runway. Maybe the apple tarts will wait until the weekend.

They how do we start getting what we deserve?

I wish I knew!

Lee, they like to hang out on my parents' front porch furniture. They're tiny,hungry dinosaurs. STG, they're plotting something. What, no idea. Meepmeep is a mockery.

Clearly.

I made gluten free cupcakes for K-Bug's classmates. Pretty tasty if I do say so. Gave some to my hair dresser too.

Really not thrilled with having a bald spot. It is almost the diameter of a penny. Two more weeks of stress.

I saw a road runner run across the road earlier and it didn't go meep meep. I feel lied to

I'd feel lied to if it didn't run through a tunnel painted on rock.

I don't know what I deserve, but I think I deserve a little better than this, and I know y'all do.

You deserve more than a little better, Ginger.

I know it doesn't work this way, but when I find myself exploding on the shoulder of near-strangers (they have ONE job to do--why is biology so complicated and fragile), and people I barely know (thanks,J! are going out of their way to make things plausibe--I gave up things already. I gave up on falling in love. I gave up on being a big brain. I gave up on children...was that it? Was I too selfish? I would kill to be taken care of right now, of knowing I could explode and someone would stop me from scattering the pieces, but how can I not feel that ship is sailing faster and faster away? ANd I'm left with no autonomy, weak will, and n ot enough to get by on my own.

I would give back half the larks I had in uni. They just make me feel more miserable now, i stead of warming the cockles of my heart.

And forward just looks dark and echoey almost silent, because even my best shits, when I turn me uo to 120% and pretend life isn't miserable, it's not enough to sell a stranger.

Not nice enough, not good enough, not in enough, not bright enough, not enough.

WE'll see how long that stays up.