I'm scared that people at work will think I'm nuts.

How many people know about it? (And is your workplace gossipy?) But really, fuck them if they think it's weird to get medical treatment for a medical condition. Do they throw eggs at cancer patients? (Oh god, they don't, do they?)

Someone just left a comment on Flickr: "sehr schöne Aufnahme, RESPEKT". I guess I have street cred in Leipzig now.

Okay, Mr. Fancy Pants. (Or, I should say, Mr. Fancy Lederhosen.)

I'm glad that treatment is finished and that you are starting to feel better, Allyson.

ita, I am so sorry to hear about UCLA.

I'm sorry, ita. Being first runner up doesn't pay one damn bill, no matter how nice HR is about it. I hope you get something good soon. Even the paper pushing job will keep the broadband on and might make you some good connections.

Congrats on finishing the ECT, Allyson! I hope things continue to improve for you.

Here's a randomish question for the hivemind. I want to make meditation part of my morning routine (it's something I fit in whenever right now, or more often than not don't manage to fit in). It won't be the absolute first thing I do when I get up, that's just not going to work, and I know I want to get it done before I shower and get dressed because meditating in work clothes does not sound optimal. So the question is: before or after breakfast?

ita, that sucks. May you get something soon.

Allyson, you were brave to go through with it, and I hope things keep getting better!

Tom, that's cool! RESPEKT

-t, I would do it before breakfast, but not if I were hungry enough to be distracted.

It's a pleasantly gloomy day, preparing to rain. I should've gone to the grocery, but dealing with the pharmacy took all my spoons, and I'm not going back out. My throat hurts and I hope it fixes itself so I don't have to go to the doctor.

I told my sister I wouldn't look up methadone withdrawal. What do they know about my history and dosage about? Ooops.

When you say you won't. Don't. Not without medical translation.

ita, I'm very sorry about ucla.

Meep, I really hope it doesn't come to that, ita.

That's kinda how I was leaning, Zen. I think I'll try it, see how it goes. If I wake up starving, I'll eat then meditate; otherwise meditate right before. That sounds simple and straightforward.

It takes me a while before I get hungry in the morning. This has been a bit of a problem lately with my teaching schedule as I need to either eat by 7:15 or not eat until 11.

ita, that sucks, I'm sorry.

Allyson, take free pass to judge harshly anyone who would judge you. You're kinda a superhero, you fucking rewired your brain with science. They didn't bodily perform science on themselves.

So my (nonCSC) boss accidentally saw the title of my spreadsheet calculating my leave balances. The problem, you ask? I named it CSC's FUCK YOU, FUCK OFF. Oops.

And then our division (might be others, don't know, but ours is the biggest) got notice from the ombudsman about complaints about people being discourteous in mtgs- sleeping, busy with mobile devices, too aggressive. Now, most of the people I am in mtgs with? We've worked together a long time. We're snarky, overly familiar, and if someone is working on their laptop at the same time, we all know why, so not bothered. That I am aware of. But I'm one of the snarkiest who has pretty thick skin up to a point, and at that point, you'll hear it. So, I don't think any of the offenses are from our group, but hard to say. There've been some pretty bloody mtgs this past year, but when anyone has really gone off the rails, apologies are tendered by the end.

Also, I think this may derive from the fact everyone is fucking stressed out.