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I don't know. But it's a variation on the spoon theory anyway. Be your spoons spent on money, calamities, caregiving, time...

Randomish thought (I've been re-reading LJ posts as well as bureaucracy stuff here).

I used to be much more engaged in battle on the internet. I mean, really deeply involved.

Now, I'm pretty distant (for most things). In some ways, the internet is a much nicer, less confrontational place. Is it because my internet experiences are way less interactive and way more broadcasting. Or is it because I just have fewer spoons?

Oh! We're going to San Francisco on Wednesday.

I HATE LOOKING AT MY BUDGET.

I get so mad at myself for spending on things and then I look at my set monthly expenses and there is so very little to trim. So it is all eating out and clothes and extra stuff that has to be cut. Like maybe I could get cheaper electricity since I did not shop around last time, but is that gonna save a ton? no. I should cut back on lawn watering, that actually will save some. The part where I hate everything money related is RIGHT HERE RIGT NOW.

I just dusted under (excavated?) the refrigerator in the hope that this would make the refrigerator stop freezing my vegetables in the vegetable drawer. Frozen vegetables in the freezer are okay, but frozen lettuce and cucumbers make me sad.

The kittens thought the dusters and the dustpan were awesome new games. I kept having to move kittens out of the way to pull out dust bunnies and dirt and refrigerator magnets and part of a broken glass. One kitten got her claws in the extendable duster and I dragged her across the kitchen like a cat mop.

Or is it because I just have fewer spoons?

Kat, I've thought about this a bit because I'm not engaging in internet battle anymore. For me, I think it's a combination of things: having fewer spoons, letting go of the need to make someone admit that I'm right, asking myself if this really is the hill on which I choose to die and deciding it isn't. That my time is limited and I want to spend it on things that I enjoy, and realizing that I don't find joy in anger.

There's also a bit from Craig Ferguson's latest stand up special: "Ask yourself the three things you must always ask yourself before you say anything. 1) Does this need to be said? 2) Does this need to be said by me? 3) “Does this need to be said by me now?"

I am with you on the budget, msbelle. It is getting to where I hate the whole capitalist system. If only I had something better to put in its place, but I don't have to time to think about that sufficiently.

I just dusted under (excavated?) the refrigerator in the hope that this would make the refrigerator stop freezing my vegetables in the vegetable drawer. Frozen vegetables in the freezer are okay, but frozen lettuce and cucumbers make me sad.

Can't you just turn the cold down? There's that knob inside the fridge and everything.

I did that with the digital thermostat. It keeps getting colder anyway.

Oh, my lettuce was freezing for a while there. But not any more. Hm, what changed? Maybe I made the freezer less cold? Or more cold? I think I just tinkered with the coldness settings for both the fridge and the freezer sections.

Can I be less helpful?

Aha, looking at the dials - I currently have the freezer slightly colder than recommended and the fridge slightly less cold. If that actually has anything to do with the crisper no longer freezing I can't be certain, but it's something.

I swear to god, the trash guys are trying to lose my trash an lid. Just saw one wrench it from its tiedown and toss it into the middle of the alley. Did the city slash their bennies too?