I'm so sorry, everyone. I've been here since Valerie called me this morning, but haven't been able to say anything. It wasn't real to me, until Allyson posted -- at which point it got all too real.
Paula, Burrell, Allyson, and Kristen, I'm sorry this nightmare has been extra vivid for you.I lost a cousin at the end of the summer and she was found by her mom. The loss itself was too much, never mind the discovery. Bless you for doing what you could for ita and for her family. Allyson, your post was beautiful and I am sure you did the very best anyone could do with ita's family.
Maria, Joe, and Aimee, I'm sorry for what you're going through.
shrift, bless you and your random quote generator. It's been saving my sanity for hours.
One thing before I leave, if someone already mentioned these people, I apologize for having missed the mentions. I'm wondering if Jen K, Ellen S, Kat Perez, Rio, and Heather (Daisy Jane) know. Take care, everyone.
edit: Also, le nubian
I'm wondering if Jen K, Ellen S, Kat Perez, Rio, and Heather (Daisy Jane) know.
I think so, don't know, yes, yes, and yes.
Yes to Ellen as well.
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Also Jen K.
Oh, good. Thanks. And Tep, thanks to you, Hec, Deb, Cashmere, and VW for making sure I would know. I'm just so sorry and that's all I can keep thinking or saying.
Everyone...I appreciate the sentiment behind your sorrow for me, but...well, really, it's time for Grandma. She's made it clear she wants to go and, frankly, she's hung around longer than anyone expected. The real, final push was, I think, my mom's death. So I'm okay. This day's sorrow isn't for me, it's for ita. I seriously don't want it to be other than that.
Tomorrow, next week, next month...whenever my Grandma decides to go...then I'll be here accepting your comfort. Today I just want to share the comfort we can bring each other, what I can give as well as get.
This day is about ita. And it's *for* Allyson and Kristen and Paula and ita's family and...well, all of us, but equally.
If that makes sense.
Yes, it does. It makes total sense.
But thank you for your kindness.
Hi Cindy. Glad to see you check in, in that weird and bittersweet way.
Heh. The BF basically said the same thing. He doesn't want his loss today to take away from the grief we feel at ita's. I told him it doesn't work like that. It's not a "take from pot A and put in pot B" situation. It's more like they become pot AB and the grief and the sorrow flow freely.
Le Nubian texted me about it, so she knows.
Allyson just posted a call for help in the ita thread, FYI.
