I'm sitting in the sun in front of the federal building, sobbing.
Thank you, Allyson, Kristen, Burrell, Polgara, Drew, Kat, and everyone who was there for ita.
I cannot fathom it.
I always thought the name Serenity had a vaguely funereal sound to it.
Simon ,'Out Of Gas'
Natter 73: Chuck Norris only wishes he could Natter
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Consuela - Jan 13, 2015 8:52:34 am PST #14673 of 30000
We are Buffistas. This isn't our first apocalypse. -- Pix
Laura - Jan 13, 2015 8:55:39 am PST #14674 of 30000
Our wings are not tired.
Thank you, Maria. So much.
WindSparrow - Jan 13, 2015 8:58:17 am PST #14675 of 30000
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Allyson, thank you for writing, for answering questions I had but did not ask. Thank you for all you did for ita and her family. Thank you, Polgara, Burrell, Kristen. I'm so sorry for all of us, and so amazed at the love here. Not amazed that it exists, just amazed at the power to lift up.
juliana - Jan 13, 2015 8:59:48 am PST #14676 of 30000
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
Allyson, thank you.
And, as I'm currently unemployed & have a car, I can be down in LA in less than 6 hours, if anyone needs anything for any reason.
esse - Jan 13, 2015 9:00:26 am PST #14677 of 30000
S to the A -- using they/them pronouns!
What a horrible reason to come back to the board after too long away, but I am so grateful to see all your pixels. I am so very sad to lose ita. It feels like some innocence I had left has been lost.
This is a silly but true thing--I've been deep into the Hobbit, the films, the books, the fandom, and was gearing up to rewatch LOTR, and far before this news came to me, I've only ever associated LOTR as a whole with ita. When we bought her Legolas' knives, and gave them to her, and saw the joy on her face. It was our gesture of love, friendship, and admiration, all those years ago, and it remains one of my fondest memories.
I am so grateful for you all.
le nubian - Jan 13, 2015 9:02:23 am PST #14678 of 30000
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."
Yes, thank you Allyson. Thank you.
god damn.
Nora Deirdre - Jan 13, 2015 9:02:27 am PST #14679 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
Oh, Paula, Kristen, and Allyson. Much love to you all. I'm sorry. Allyson, thank you so much for posting. I appreciate it so much. Also, Maria, thanks for sharing her words with us.
I've been ugly crying all day, and transposed my sorrow and rage on to a work related slight. Fantastic. Every time I talk to someone I start crying, with the exception of the Popeye's drive thru window. Ellen called me and I started breaking down.
Nora Deirdre - Jan 13, 2015 9:03:21 am PST #14680 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
I hope Burrell is OK.
Maria - Jan 13, 2015 9:04:47 am PST #14681 of 30000
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
I just talked to her. She's at work and won't be able to get on the board until this evening. She's holding on.
beekaytee - Jan 13, 2015 9:05:25 am PST #14682 of 30000
Compassionately intolerant
I saw the photo of ita on FB about 20 minutes ago and immediately brightened. My thought was, 'Yay! ita if feeling better!'
When I came here and saw that I'd missed 300+ messages, my heart realized the truth before my brain could process it.
No.no.no.no. It can't be.
It is infathomable.
How do I feel so broken over someone I never had the opportunity to meet in person? Fuck you to anyone who says you can't make true connections with someone you know only online.
This. So completely this.
ita was challenging and kind and creative and inspiring and so much more than can be explained to anyone who has not lived here.
As my own tears flow, I honor and embrace the pain in every one of your hearts.
I'm with Nilly in choosing to believe that ita is in a state of being where there is no more pain.
I bless her strength and her incredible contributions to the lives of a shockingly vast number of people on this earth.
Those who had the honor of her corporeal presence, those who benefited from her technical wizardry, those who were inspired by her physical prowess, those who were entertained by her art and genuine passion for the beauty in life and those who were touched by the kindness of her heart.
We are all richer for her existence.