I just keep thinking that she was all alone, and it hurts so much.
Simon: You're out of your mind. Early: That's between me and my mind.
'Objects In Space'
Natter 73: Chuck Norris only wishes he could Natter
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Amy - Jan 13, 2015 4:42:58 am PST #14446 of 30000
Because books.
tiggy - Jan 13, 2015 4:45:29 am PST #14447 of 30000
I do believe in killing the messenger, you know why? Because it sends a message. ~ Damon Salvatore
I am so sorry to hear this. i can't even really believe it.
Nilly - Jan 13, 2015 4:45:50 am PST #14448 of 30000
Swouncing
There woulddn't be Buffistas without her.
Not just in the technical term, of her writing the code for the board. This beautiful, elegant, can-do-all-we-wanted-from-it board. In the terms of the spirit of this place. The force-of-life of it. We may have still be communicating online had ot not been for her, but it wouldn't have been Buffistas.
So much of this place that is so important for me, for so many, is from her, her generous, graceful couragous, strong, humourous - goodness, I can go on and on, the minute my eyes stop getting foggy from all those tears - so much of this place that is so meaningful, got its spirit and uniquness from her.
Oh, no.
Maggie B - Jan 13, 2015 4:49:02 am PST #14449 of 30000
I am stunned and in tears. As a lurker I didn't know ita as so many of you did but she, in many ways, was this board to me. She did so much to create this place and added so much to my quiet, solitary life. I feel terrible that I never said thank you to her.
I am heartbroken for everyone who had the privilege of knowing her and being part of her life. I hope that comfort and peace can be found in each other as well as in this beautiful place she made for the world.
Thank you ita for all you gave. You are already deeply missed.
Connie Neil - Jan 13, 2015 4:49:37 am PST #14450 of 30000
brillig
She doesn't hurt anymore.
JZ - Jan 13, 2015 4:50:20 am PST #14451 of 30000
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
Oh, Nilly, love. That is so beautifully said. And I'm raging and crying at the reason you are saying it.
Nilly - Jan 13, 2015 4:52:36 am PST #14452 of 30000
Swouncing
And I have to, I keep repeating to myself, that she's in a place where there's no pain nor fear right now.
I believe this in all my heart, and I repeat this over and over to myself.
Alibelle - Jan 13, 2015 4:55:20 am PST #14453 of 30000
Apart from sports, "my secret favorite thing on earth is ketchup. I will put ketchup on anything. But it has to be Heinz." - my husband, Michael Vartan
This sucks.
Zenkitty - Jan 13, 2015 4:59:47 am PST #14454 of 30000
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
oh, no. oh, ita. amazing ita is gone. I can't stop crying for her, and for all of us without her.
When I saw Hec's notice, my heart dropped. I always knew one day I'd come to the board and find one of us was gone, but I didn't think it would happen so soon, and I never thought it would be her.
Steph L. - Jan 13, 2015 5:06:07 am PST #14455 of 30000
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
I slept late today, so I just heard. And I really have no words, just tears. And I lit a candle for my beautiful friend.