I used to have them all down. I think from Nine Parts of Desire. But I've gotten fuzzy. I should re-read that, it has been a while.
Mal: You are very much lacking in imagination. Zoe: I imagine that's so, sir.
'Out Of Gas'
Natter 72: We Were Unprepared for This
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
sarameg - Jul 31, 2013 3:56:55 pm PDT #939 of 30000
Typo Boy - Jul 31, 2013 4:18:10 pm PDT #940 of 30000
Calli: My people have a saying. A man who trusts can never be betrayed, only mistaken.Avon: Life expectancy among your people must be extremely short.
I like a bunch of the songs on people's hell list: Joy to the World, Tin Soldier, My Perogative (among others). And ITA with ita ! on tearing off hijabs and in general trying to FORCE people not to wear things.
Jesse - Jul 31, 2013 4:38:58 pm PDT #941 of 30000
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
It's anti-choice feminism with a dose of xenophobia and sprinklings of voluntary ignorance (who would choose to be different from me???).
Yuuuup.
le nubian - Jul 31, 2013 4:57:19 pm PDT #942 of 30000
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."
Bryan Sims a legislator in PA was interviewed on Maddow's show tonight. He is super cute. And gay. Matt, you need to look him up.
§ ita § - Jul 31, 2013 5:45:34 pm PDT #943 of 30000
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
I know this sounds like I can't even read my own handwriting, but MOTHERFUCK.
What a difference pain makes. I forget how not epically awful the world can be once the pain gets past a certain point. My cab ride to the hospital was me curled in on myself, every buffet of wind from the open front window felt like a blow to the head (hyperbole factor=0%, weight of boxing gloves =14oz), I hated the driver, everything was awful. At the hospital I started crying during triage, I couldn't remember that this bit of the neuro function test was where I squeezed her fingers, NOTHING.
Afterwards? Effusively discussing my bandaid collection with the nurse, chatted with the cab driver the whole way back, from traffic to birthday presents to anything, tipped him 25% because I felt bad for Teavanaing him so thoroughly...
I just...that's what being down to 3 or 4/10 feels like, as opposed to the 8 or 9 I've been hitting most of the week. There is no perspective from the bottom of the well.
Which doesn't make it more trivial--I just don't know how to explain that I'm not overreacting when it's like that, I'm reacting. That is what it's like, and without a map out, it keeps being that way. It is not sanely sustainable, at least not for me. And I don't think it's a depression they can medicate or talk or therapise my way out of. That is what /experiencing/ it is like. Otherwise they'd call it happiness, bitches.
::phew::
Okay, vented. Now for some fruit salad for dinner.
Amy - Jul 31, 2013 5:51:36 pm PDT #944 of 30000
Because books.
I'm glad you were treated (and well!) tonight, ita.
meara - Jul 31, 2013 5:54:42 pm PDT #945 of 30000
Bryan Sims a legislator in PA was interviewed on Maddow's show tonight. He is super cute. And gay. Matt, you need to look him up.
Hah. I have one friend who is always pimping his stuff on FB because she went to high school with him, and another who is a gay activitst in Philly who works with him.
§ ita § - Jul 31, 2013 6:30:02 pm PDT #946 of 30000
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Thanks, Amy. It is a huge relief. And I'm going to baby myself for the next few days, so I'm not already/further behind the eight ball (correct idiom (thank you, Teen Wolf)?) on Sunday.
No incest guy actually pestered me for a reply to his "I am so sad, but I'm still not reading what you wrote" post. Jeezus. I just gave him a lecture on not projecting his woes onto strangers and walked away. What does he need from me? Old-timer validation? I mean, who actually says "I'm new to the internet"? He must be 75,
My mid year review was not a review! Thank dog! It was just informing me of my objectives for, um, 2013. Good thing I was already working, huh?
Everyone has the same objectives--the CIO's are inherited by us and the main difference is the weighting. Which I'd never asked about until this year (I knew all mine were hers--I didn't know if she had any others). Also, I only have 80% of objectives, so that's pretty clear leeway to fart around on the company dime, right?
le nubian - Jul 31, 2013 6:38:41 pm PDT #947 of 30000
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."
jeez ita, you've really been operating at an 8 or 9? Damn. When I have reached a 7, I call it fucking quits.
§ ita § - Jul 31, 2013 7:00:17 pm PDT #948 of 30000
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
jeez ita, you've really been operating at an 8 or 9?
Let's call it "operating". I took Monday off, worked from home pretty well on Tuesday, but there were naps, and cried all the way home (slowly) today at lunch. I don't think I've slept more than three hours in a row (I looked over at my clock first time I woke up last night, saw the time started with a 2, was happy, saw the next character was a 1 and not a colon (making it nine twenty one PM, not two something anything AM) and then cried and took another 12.5mg of Ambien.
Thankfully a lot of my job right now involves arguing (with my boss-it's like Christmas every day), so although it takes stuff out of me, it's not rigorous detail oriented volumes of product that will get checked by someone else.
Yet.
I live in pretty constant terror of being discovered and fired. BUT I MAKE MY DELIVERABLES. I just...discovered and fired. Must be around the corner, no?
My therapist wants to improve the volume of my social life. Good lord, no! More people to fear disappointing? I'm still holding tight to coasting on cred I earned five to twenty five years ago. No new people.