Timelies all!
I'm sorry, Calli.
I hope you don't think that I just come over for the spells and everything. I mean, I really like just talking and hanging out with you and stuff.
Willow ,'First Date'
Natter 72: We Were Unprepared for This
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Sheryl - Jun 05, 2014 1:01:08 pm PDT #29220 of 30000
Fandom means never having to say "But where would I wear that?"
Steph L. - Jun 05, 2014 1:17:05 pm PDT #29221 of 30000
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
You all know that I'm crazy, right? In an endearing, yet maddening way? Good.
My boss at the AMA told me that a higher-level (read: much more complicated and shit, but also higher-paying) editor position is likely to be open in a couple of months, and wanted to know if I was interested.
A sane person would be like, hey, after 6 months my boss thinks I can handle harder, more complicated shit AND wants to pay me more to do so! I am so badass!
*I*, however, am all JESUS CHRIST WHAT IF I CAN'T DO THIS AND FAIL HORRIBLY AND THEY WON'T KEEP MY OLD JOB OPEN SO THEN I WON'T HAVE ANY JOB THIS IS A BIG RISK OH MY GOD WHY WOULD I DO THIS?!?!?
Because I am insane.
My boss wouldn't ask me if I was interested if she didn't think I could do it. She also wouldn't offer it to me without planning to train and guide me. My rational brain knows all this. Unfortunately my "rational brain" is about 2 cells, while 99.99% of my brain is Daffy Duck when he starts flipping his shit.
I am just not right in the head.
Anyway, she told me to take a few days and get back to her, and I told her I was flattered that she thought of me, and I would formulate a list of questions and get them to her by the end of the week.
Assuming the position really comes open in a couple of months, I'm sure I'll go for it. I'm just freaked out by the challenge and afraid I can't do it.
Even though it's what I did for EIGHTEEN YEARS.
Because I am insane.
-t - Jun 05, 2014 1:20:02 pm PDT #29222 of 30000
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
Granted, it's not an entirely rational reaction, but it sounds like a very normal and typically human one.
Go you, that's awesome!
hippocampus - Jun 05, 2014 1:32:25 pm PDT #29223 of 30000
not your mom's socks.
Posted a couple of photos under a light lockdown on the book of face.
Yeah, MS starting in fifth seems young to me too.
Calli - Jun 05, 2014 1:39:12 pm PDT #29224 of 30000
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs
Your boss thinks you're awesome, Steph. As is right and proper. Go you!
Laura - Jun 05, 2014 1:56:28 pm PDT #29225 of 30000
Our wings are not tired.
Yay Teppy! I suspect a large number of us expect that all those people around us that tell us routinely how brilliant we are might catch on one day that we are frauds and don't deserve to inspire confidence. Just guessing.
Jesse - Jun 05, 2014 2:03:21 pm PDT #29226 of 30000
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
Nice going, Steph! I'm going to say the freakout is normal for a short reaction, but don't let it keep you from pursuing the job!
brenda m - Jun 05, 2014 2:40:03 pm PDT #29227 of 30000
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Jesus. Another campus shooting, this one in Seattle.
Ginger - Jun 05, 2014 2:40:42 pm PDT #29228 of 30000
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda
Teppy, you are not right in the head.
Your boss at the AMA probably goes to bed every night thinking, "Thank god I found Steph."
amych - Jun 05, 2014 2:56:53 pm PDT #29229 of 30000
Now let us crush something soft and watch it fountain blood. That is a girlish thing to want to do, yes?
Tep, you know this, but the brain weasels are not your friends.