You all know that I'm crazy, right? In an endearing, yet maddening way? Good.

My boss at the AMA told me that a higher-level (read: much more complicated and shit, but also higher-paying) editor position is likely to be open in a couple of months, and wanted to know if I was interested.

A sane person would be like, hey, after 6 months my boss thinks I can handle harder, more complicated shit AND wants to pay me more to do so! I am so badass!

*I*, however, am all JESUS CHRIST WHAT IF I CAN'T DO THIS AND FAIL HORRIBLY AND THEY WON'T KEEP MY OLD JOB OPEN SO THEN I WON'T HAVE ANY JOB THIS IS A BIG RISK OH MY GOD WHY WOULD I DO THIS?!?!?

Because I am insane.

My boss wouldn't ask me if I was interested if she didn't think I could do it. She also wouldn't offer it to me without planning to train and guide me. My rational brain knows all this. Unfortunately my "rational brain" is about 2 cells, while 99.99% of my brain is Daffy Duck when he starts flipping his shit.

I am just not right in the head.

Anyway, she told me to take a few days and get back to her, and I told her I was flattered that she thought of me, and I would formulate a list of questions and get them to her by the end of the week.

Assuming the position really comes open in a couple of months, I'm sure I'll go for it. I'm just freaked out by the challenge and afraid I can't do it.

Even though it's what I did for EIGHTEEN YEARS.

Because I am insane.

Granted, it's not an entirely rational reaction, but it sounds like a very normal and typically human one.

Go you, that's awesome!

Posted a couple of photos under a light lockdown on the book of face.

Yeah, MS starting in fifth seems young to me too.

Your boss thinks you're awesome, Steph. As is right and proper. Go you!

Yay Teppy! I suspect a large number of us expect that all those people around us that tell us routinely how brilliant we are might catch on one day that we are frauds and don't deserve to inspire confidence. Just guessing.

Nice going, Steph! I'm going to say the freakout is normal for a short reaction, but don't let it keep you from pursuing the job!

Jesus. Another campus shooting, this one in Seattle.

Teppy, you are not right in the head.

Your boss at the AMA probably goes to bed every night thinking, "Thank god I found Steph."

Tep, you know this, but the brain weasels are not your friends.

Your boss at the AMA probably goes to bed every night thinking, "Thank god I found Steph."

Tim too.

I mean that Tim probably goes to bed every night thinking that, not that your boss goes to bed thinking "Thank god I found Tim." For all I know he hasn't found Tim yet. He might be playing hard to get.