Where else, Steph? If I lived near you I'd wash your dishes and take Kato for a walk . I won't edit for you - because we all know that would be scary.
I'm getting off line , but I'l check in later
Spike: Heard what happened up top, offing your dad and all. Don't know if you know this, but, uh…I killed my mum. Actually, I'd already killed her, and then she tried to shag me, so I had to-- Wesley: Thank you. I'm…very comforted.
'Lineage'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
beth b - Feb 04, 2014 6:30:28 am PST #8888 of 30002
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
Tom Scola - Feb 04, 2014 6:30:52 am PST #8889 of 30002
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
Steph, as far as we're concerned, you're quite welcome to lose your shit whenever you want.
Steph L. - Feb 04, 2014 6:32:48 am PST #8890 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
It's fine. I'm sorry.
Ginger - Feb 04, 2014 6:34:57 am PST #8891 of 30002
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda
Do not be sorry. The first rule of Bitches is that venting about anything at any time is not an imposition on anyone.
Steph L. - Feb 04, 2014 6:36:48 am PST #8892 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
It's fine. I'm sorry. It's all fine. It's okay.
Amy - Feb 04, 2014 6:38:15 am PST #8893 of 30002
Because books.
Steph, you don't have to apologize. I know those moments when it's all pressing in and it feels insurmountable are really scary, too. Don't worry about us -- be sure you're okay and calm(ish) now. If not, call one of us, okay?
brenda m - Feb 04, 2014 6:41:47 am PST #8894 of 30002
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Steph, please please freak out all you want. Or need.
You're not fine. But that's okay. It is okay to be not fine.
WindSparrow - Feb 04, 2014 6:42:57 am PST #8895 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Steph, I hope you are saying that over and over as a mantra. When I'm trying to keep it together and not sure if I can, I tend to go with "I feel good, I feel fine, I feel wonderful" while conjuring up as much of "What About Bob?" as I can to work the incompatible emotions angle.
juliana - Feb 04, 2014 6:49:09 am PST #8896 of 30002
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
Steph, thank you for sharing your freakout with us, because I hope that means that you know you're not alone in this.
Also, you are always welcome to come out here and eat as much sushi as you can.
P.M. Marc - Feb 04, 2014 6:54:33 am PST #8897 of 30002
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear
Tep, have you tried the anti-anxiety breathing techniques for freakout interruption? And even quaking and hyperventilating, *sitting* in the shower is a safe option. (I don't suggest standing, but sitting is A+, would use that method again.)