Steph, you don't have to apologize. I know those moments when it's all pressing in and it feels insurmountable are really scary, too. Don't worry about us -- be sure you're okay and calm(ish) now. If not, call one of us, okay?
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Amy - Feb 04, 2014 6:38:15 am PST #8893 of 30002
Because books.
brenda m - Feb 04, 2014 6:41:47 am PST #8894 of 30002
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Steph, please please freak out all you want. Or need.
You're not fine. But that's okay. It is okay to be not fine.
WindSparrow - Feb 04, 2014 6:42:57 am PST #8895 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Steph, I hope you are saying that over and over as a mantra. When I'm trying to keep it together and not sure if I can, I tend to go with "I feel good, I feel fine, I feel wonderful" while conjuring up as much of "What About Bob?" as I can to work the incompatible emotions angle.
juliana - Feb 04, 2014 6:49:09 am PST #8896 of 30002
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
Steph, thank you for sharing your freakout with us, because I hope that means that you know you're not alone in this.
Also, you are always welcome to come out here and eat as much sushi as you can.
P.M. Marc - Feb 04, 2014 6:54:33 am PST #8897 of 30002
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear
Tep, have you tried the anti-anxiety breathing techniques for freakout interruption? And even quaking and hyperventilating, *sitting* in the shower is a safe option. (I don't suggest standing, but sitting is A+, would use that method again.)
Amy - Feb 04, 2014 6:56:43 am PST #8898 of 30002
Because books.
have you tried the anti-anxiety breathing techniques for freakout interruption?
Want to share? I could have used some the other day.
Tom Scola - Feb 04, 2014 6:57:12 am PST #8899 of 30002
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
but sitting is A+, would use that method again.
BTDT.
Fred Pete - Feb 04, 2014 6:58:49 am PST #8900 of 30002
Ann, that's a ferret.
Steph, keeping it bottled in isn't a good option. And this is about as safe a place to freak out as there is.
And you don't have time NOT to deal with your feelings, one way or another.
Zenkitty - Feb 04, 2014 7:15:14 am PST #8901 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
Steph, it seems to me talking to Tim would be a good thing? He's your support system, right there, and he loves you, and he already knows you're prone to anxiety attacks. And he loves you.
Steph L. - Feb 04, 2014 7:21:52 am PST #8902 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
I don't want to be a disappointment to him. I don't want to talk to him about how I'm a huge failure because it's just going to emphasize that he deserves so much better than me.