Tep, have you tried the anti-anxiety breathing techniques for freakout interruption? And even quaking and hyperventilating, *sitting* in the shower is a safe option. (I don't suggest standing, but sitting is A+, would use that method again.)
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have you tried the anti-anxiety breathing techniques for freakout interruption?
Want to share? I could have used some the other day.
but sitting is A+, would use that method again.
BTDT.
Steph, keeping it bottled in isn't a good option. And this is about as safe a place to freak out as there is.
And you don't have time NOT to deal with your feelings, one way or another.
Steph, it seems to me talking to Tim would be a good thing? He's your support system, right there, and he loves you, and he already knows you're prone to anxiety attacks. And he loves you.
I don't want to be a disappointment to him. I don't want to talk to him about how I'm a huge failure because it's just going to emphasize that he deserves so much better than me.
If you think he's going to be disappointed in you, after having known you for so long, then apparently you're very good at hiding things from him, because I think he knows most everything about you by now and loves you a whole lot.
I just can't.
I don't want to be a disappointment to him. I don't want to talk to him about how I'm a huge failure because it's just going to emphasize that he deserves so much better than me.
You know...I don't want to tell you shit about your husband, but that's not him. He's not like that. He loves you - not some generic perfect wife you have made up in your head to torture yourself with.
OK, if you can't, you can't. Go hug a critter, take 15 seconds to let a critter adore you, because they don't care.