Oh god, I'm sick as hell and I have so much work to do and I'm an enormous failure and Tim never should have married me and we're going to have to live in a cardboard box and it's all my fault because I fail at life totally and Tim deserves so much better than me and I can't talk to him about any of this because it's humiliating and I'm hyperventilating and losing my shit in an epic way right now and I don't have time because I have so much work to do and need to meet Aimee later and I think I'm going to just collapse in a pile of failure and shame. I can't stand this. I need to work and I need to get in the shower and I am losing my mind right now.
Ah, yes, of course. The gypsies, they gave you your soul. The gypsies are filthy people. Ptui! We shall speak of them no more.
Ilona Costa Bianchi ,'The Girl in Question'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Steph L. - Feb 04, 2014 5:39:43 am PST #8877 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
beth b - Feb 04, 2014 5:50:28 am PST #8878 of 30002
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
We'll help you find your mind later. Get in the shower now. Start with what you can control
beth b - Feb 04, 2014 5:50:48 am PST #8879 of 30002
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
Love you, steph
Steph L. - Feb 04, 2014 5:52:08 am PST #8880 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
I can't, I don't have time. I have too much work to do and I'm hyperventilating and I can't calm down. I am such a failure at everything.
brenda m - Feb 04, 2014 5:55:19 am PST #8881 of 30002
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Will a full on freak out for 15 minutes help? Do you have some ugly dishes to smash?
beth b - Feb 04, 2014 6:04:23 am PST #8882 of 30002
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
A shower will clear your head , it is a safe place to cry and scream
If I was there I would do more .
Fred Pete - Feb 04, 2014 6:17:12 am PST #8883 of 30002
Ann, that's a ferret.
Steph, take a shower. Or at least a deep breath.
Then pick one thing off your to-do list. Just one. Preferably something easy and quick. And do it.
Steph L. - Feb 04, 2014 6:20:24 am PST #8884 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
I'm not getting in the shower while I'm hyperventilating and losing my shit. That can't be a good idea. I'm doing stuff. I am. There's just so much and everyone needs it all now and I am just fucking FAILING at everything so hard. I'm doing stuff. I am.
beth b - Feb 04, 2014 6:23:57 am PST #8885 of 30002
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
and if you are doing stuff - you are not failing , you just not making everyone happy at the same time
Steph L. - Feb 04, 2014 6:25:21 am PST #8886 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
It's okay. I'm fine. I'm doing stuff. It's okay.