erin, best, BEST of luck to you! I've played girlie-parts-healing bingo before (this works? try this! try that! try nothing! try something!) and it is very frustrating.

Oh Erin. I'm sorry hon. Girly bits are annoying enough when thy aren't malfunctioning. You know I get the ovarian cyst issue; just the worst, and scary to consider moving forward without BC. One day at a time. I'm wishing you the best.

And Connie, I'm not able to keep up as often as I'd like right now, but please know I'm thinking of you and your Hubby.

And one more thing: my cats have realized I'm awake, and it sounds like they are throwing themselves against the bedroom door while meowing pathetically. Go home, cats, you're drunk.

I know it doesn't compare with other people's situations right now, but I've been having a bad week. I hesitate to talk about it (which is a first, right, for TMI whine-about-every-little-problem me, yeah?), because it's just garden-variety life bullshit and it'll pass. And talking about it would force me to acknowledge how much of a failure I am right now at every part of my life except existing (I'm still pretty good at that).

I haven't even talked about it with Tim, because who wants to say, hey, yeah, check out how much I am sucking at every part of my life including being a good wife; aren't you thrilled you married me?

But not talking about it is so isolating and my head is the worst echo chamber ever.

It'll pass, but it sucks to be in it.

I'm sorry things are sucky right now. I hope you can break out of it.

There is no scale of importance for pain or unhappiness. If you want to talk about it, we'll be happy to listen. If you want hugs, we will offer hugs.

Many hugs to all who need/want them. Connie, I am keeping you and Hubby in my thoughts throughout this whole nightmare. erin_o, here's hoping for the very best outcome, and I'm glad at least that you have a doctor who takes your concerns seriously and is able to come up with a plan for treatment.

Tep, I don't know the particulars of your own situation, but I am also feeling right now like I don't want to admit to all the things I feel like I'm failing at. For me it's mostly a case of "not enough time in the day," and what usually falls by the wayside is spending time with M. Which sucks, because, gosh, I like hanging out with him, and I know we both get a little sad when we don't get enough time to reconnect; and then I feel guilty because I suck at being a good wife/partner. Blah.

Congrats! Do you need tips or help re: campus visits? Happy to offer if I can help.

Thanks! I don't have any questions yet, but I'll gladly take any tips.

Lots of ~ma for everyone. Seems like a lot of stuff is hitting a lot of people this week.

Two onerous tasks completed! I think I have finally convinced the alumni association at the college I dropped out of that I am not in fact an alumni, and they really need to stop calling me for donations and sending me mailers. And I should have my urgent medical supplies by tomorrow, which is only a couple weeks later than I was supposed to have them. Now, I'm off to my pre-op appointment.

Man, looks like a rough morning around here.

Erin, best possible outcome-ma for you and your parts (was gonna say ladyparts, but I didn't want your liver to feel excluded).

Steph, I'm sorry you're having a rough time and I hope you get an upswing soon.

Kate, lots of enough-minutes-in-the-day-ma.

sj, glad things are coming together and I hope the trend continues for you.

Connie, continued ~ma for you and DH. Loved that FB photo of him, he looks like quite the character.

Ginger, I've been reading the tips and helpful hints you've been providing lately (actually, kinda always, just with varying topics) and I wanted to say thanks. I'm sorry you've had to go through such a crapload, but I'm grateful you've gained wisdom that you've been so willing to share.

And now, back to Standard Procedure Manuals, catch y'all later.

~ma and hugs all round. I figure even the hug averse can take them from this far away.

e_o, I hope for the best possible outcome.

Teppy, ordinary life bullshit is often that proverbial straw. Or don't push me cause I'm close to the edge. DH keeps saying that as my new personality causes me to snap at people. Which kinda shocks them.

As a distraction I will entertain with my most distracting dream. It goes against my nature to be anxious or jumpy in any way, but I have been so lately. Maybe from life, maybe the medication I will be dropping not soon enough. I'm always thinking whoever is driving me is going to sideswipe a car or not stop fast enough. No fun. Also, the symptom that something was amiss was that I had hypersensitive sense of smell and taste. These thing clearly are intruding on my dream time.

So in the dream my cautious sister is my designated driver and she is driving wild and crazy. Like the video game Crazy Taxi if anyone ever played that. There are other people in the car too. She is running over medians, over sidewalks, sideswiping cars. Some cars she just kinda runs over half way. I am getting very upset and screaming and such. Everyone else is like, chill already, what is your problem. No one else seems to have an issue. So now I am afraid that I am hallucinating and I don't know which is worse, my sister driving like a maniac or telling my family that I am hallucinating now.

It was quite unpleasant.