But don't be resistant to change - because you really need to change your life.

For the record, I am not sitting in LA like a bump on a log. Also, I need more out of life than just making money.

I mean, I know I've mostly only surfaced my head lately when I've been grumpy about this or that, but my life here is not an endless parade of utter misery. These days, I'm very happy with my life here, not counting my income. Yes, my income desperately needs work, but I have writing projects and partners, and there's even signs and rumblings that something more might come of some of those.

I understand that it's a very good paying job in a nice city, but my hesitation, while I don't understand it fully myself, really is about more than just, "I DON'T WANNA."

I love you, David, but it's not just about me being resistant to change.

At least, I'm pretty sure. That's what I'm trying to figure out, I guess.

I did not throttle him but it was close. Still might actually.

Accidents happen but I would be LIVID. UGH, Cass...!

I love you, David, but it's not just about me being resistant to change.

I'm sorry, Sean. I didn't mean to imply that you were wasting your time in L.A. Obviously, you have many good things there or you wouldn't be reluctant to go.

However, writing in collaboration is easily done at a distance nowadays. Certainly face to face sessions are nice (Skype!), but I've done two books and many other projects over email and Google Docs.

And I do think you're undervaluing (by a lot) how much you would benefit from stability in your work and income.

Anyway, I don't mean to harass you about it. But it's hard to see you going hungry in Los Angeles, or scraping by without a car.

Hi Bitches! Still lurking but I had to jump at the chance to be post #42. Hugs and love to all y'all.

Anyway, I don't mean to harass you about it. But it's hard to see you going hungry in Los Angeles, or scraping by without a car.

You're looking out for me, I know. And I haven't turned it down or anything.

This morning another friend of mine pointed out that, until it's an actual real offer, not to stress about it any more. It was a good idea to think about it in advance, but worrying about it too much more from here on out is probably a waste of energy.

If it comes, I probably will take it, it's just.... Well, now I'm hashing over old ground.

Although getting by without a car in LA has been nowhere near as difficult as I would have imagined.

Also, I usually get to places on time now. I was always perpetually ten to fifteen minutes late when I had my own car.

Sean, can you send details of the job prospect? I'm way too behind in the old thread.

That being said, I will say this. My old job in CA had me stuck in a rut. I didn't t realize it so much then, but I would wager I had some minor depression going on. As I drove to TX, it really helped me see that. And I slowly remade myself. A big move can help you re sync your mind. It helped clear away my pack-rat mindset. Since moving to TX, my home is damn near clean. Clutter piles here and there, sure. But much nicer than ever in my life. The move helped me with that. A lot. And then I moved back, because I liked it here better. And 30% more pay than old CA job.

Again, I don't know all the details, but maybe this is opportunity knocking to help you hit the big reset button. Yes, you are doing much better than say 3-4 years ago. Yes, you have already done some of that resetting. But sometimes, life needs a little adventure. And relocating to a different region is just that! I personally do not regret one minute of my time in TX. It really helped me realize what I want, and need to do. And hey, if someone wants to pay you for an adventure? Well, don the plate mail, grab the sword, find a Mage and cleric, and roll the dice!

Hi, Laga!

It has been an oddly unproductive weekend. I've had insomnia for a week and I'm cranky. It's a gorgeous day today and I feel guilty that I don't want to go for a long walk or something.

o_a, insent to your profile address.

Well, don the plate mail, grab the sword, find a Mage and cleric, and roll the dice!

That's what's wrong with my D&D party, our mage is currently a ghost trying to gather enough money through his partner the dwarf to pay for a Resurrect spell.

Sean, make sure you find a live Mage before your adventure.