I'm really tired. I'm not used to standing up so long and I haven't been sleeping well.

I'm...struggling a bit with some aspects of the new job. And there's one guy who he's okay but he is so very very very wrong about something and I know I'm right. We had a dept metting and then I talked to my supervisor, I'm not getting into a fight over it but I know I'm right.

The issue is this - Best Buy will price match Amazon.com's prices as long as the price isn't from a third party seller. My co worker believes that we can't price match anything with Prime next to it because it has a discount on the price, not because it's eligible for Prime. Plus the prime membership doesn't give you a discount on the price. It just doesn't.

And then I realized he reminds me of my brohter a little bit. I like him, but the way he talks about things, sounds like my brother and how it triggers stuff. So I'm kind of staying out of his way.

I enjoyed the mild geekiness of Barbara Ehrenreich's comment on today being her 72nd birthday. "Hey, thanks for all the birthday wishes! It's a big adjustment, turning 72. 71 was a prime number. 72 is 2 to the third power times 3 to the second power. All these factors take some getting used to."

You are awesome for having developed the self-defense skills you already have, especially in being able to cut people off once you realize you need to. Now you are ready to improve those self-defense skills, but no reason to beat yourself up for not having upped them sooner. Again, it is amazing that developed as many social self-defense skill as you have.

Worth restating.

Worth restating.

Mwah.

I've been thinking about this so much, my brain hurts.

A college friend spontaneously sent me a lovely box of art supplies, totally out of the blue.

It was, I think, in response to a random gift I sent her not too long ago. She's an incredibly talented quilter and I found this charming fairytale about a selfish king who learns a valuable life lesson from a old woman quilter.

In any case, it was perfectly timed.

I think I'll curl up with the amazing coloring book and unwind.

askye, I hope you get some good sleep soon.

Think about times when someone you care about asked for help only after being backed up against the wall. When that happens, do you kinda wish that person had let you know there was something you could help with before it got so tough for them? Do you ever wish to help others prevent themselves from getting backed up against the wall?

nodding

Of COURSE.

But, somehow, that does not apply to me.

Honestly, if I could be _less_ mystified about why I am somehow wired to see the logic in this and yet not identify with it, I would.

Beloveds, you deserve every bit as much care as anyone else. You are not worthy because you only ever ask when there is nothing left for you to do; you are worthy of care, of affection, of kindness and respect simply because you are.

I got another job nibble -- an editing test for a company that edits academic manuscripts (this isn't the ESL company; there are apparently many companies that do this). I may be able to cobble together full-time freelance work.

Unrelatedly (or possibly relatedly), it's ridiculously hot, and I have to take my wedding dress to the seamstress today to see if she can shorten it in time for the wedding (she's taking a vacation in a week, which I didn't know about -- poor planning on my part), and run other errands, and I have a migraine from hell. Also, the dog barfed all over the living room floor.

Tuesday, you are on the list.

Beloveds, you deserve every bit as much care as anyone else. You are not worthy because you only ever ask when there is nothing left for you to do; you are worthy of care, of affection, of kindness and respect simply because you are.

Back atcha, WindSparrow.

Oy, Steph. That sounds like a day.