Congrats on staying sober last night, Strix. God knows I headed straight for the Ambien.
Seriously, Strix, that is fangoddamntastic. I hadn't taken Ambien in maybe 18 months, but I also hadn't thrown out the remainder of my Rx, so I took one last night. Otherwise I wouldn't have slept a wink.
You're one of two people I know with that struggle who stayed sober; I can't imagine the strength it took.
My brother stayed sober last night, but then he voted for Johnson, so he didn't have the kind of reaction we all did.
ION, Liese is in town, and she and Hil met me and Tim for dinner (flea works Wednesday nights, so she couldn't make it) and then Liese came to my improv performance (Hil was super tired and went home, which I was actually jealous of, because I only got about 5 hours of sleep last night). It was fantastic to see her, and I'm so flattered she came to our performance.
Congrats on staying sober last night, Strix. God knows I headed straight for the Ambien.
This. I'm very proud of you.
Strix, you're strong and amazing. Good for you!
Guys, thanks, truly, but I had no access! None. If I had some available, there's a strong chance I would have stumbled. I'm really damned proud of the 11+ months thing, but it's not like I was heroically not opening a medicine bottle in front of me.
I still drink, and smoke pot, both very occasionally, because I can and do take it or leave both of those chemicals. Never had a problem with 'em. I just steer clear of sleep aids and benzos. And I'm leery of Rx pain pills; I had to get some when I fucked up my back earlier this years, but I asked the doc just to prescribe 3 days worth. In the past, she usually just gave a standard 30 Rx, but I thought having that many laying around was just asking for trouble.
Smonster, man, did I also smoke like a motherfucker yesterday and today! I have been planning to quit by years end, but I'm going to revisit that plan in a few weeks. Bleargh.
Tonight, I'm self-medicating with decaf ice tea and bad natural disaster movies.
I really should be sleeping, because I got three hours of sleep last night, and I've been exhausted all day, but I can't fall asleep. Combination of pain and worry.
Guys, thanks, truly, but I had no access! None. If I had some available, there's a strong chance I would have stumbled.
It was a choice to not have access. Well done.
I have slept. Also in a change of pattern the horror and stress resulted in me losing 3 pounds in one day. Seriously, it is hard to find an upside.
I am sick at home again. which makes it easier to cope. I just put in my earplugs and sleep.
I've decided for the nonce not to even listen to NPR. because I don't even want to hear his voice. You guys are now my news source.
I will be on Facebook but will hide any pictures of him and won't be reading any articles attached. I just can't face this.
