Strix, you're strong and amazing. Good for you!

My loves.

Guys, thanks, truly, but I had no access! None. If I had some available, there's a strong chance I would have stumbled. I'm really damned proud of the 11+ months thing, but it's not like I was heroically not opening a medicine bottle in front of me.

I still drink, and smoke pot, both very occasionally, because I can and do take it or leave both of those chemicals. Never had a problem with 'em. I just steer clear of sleep aids and benzos. And I'm leery of Rx pain pills; I had to get some when I fucked up my back earlier this years, but I asked the doc just to prescribe 3 days worth. In the past, she usually just gave a standard 30 Rx, but I thought having that many laying around was just asking for trouble.

Smonster, man, did I also smoke like a motherfucker yesterday and today! I have been planning to quit by years end, but I'm going to revisit that plan in a few weeks. Bleargh.

Tonight, I'm self-medicating with decaf ice tea and bad natural disaster movies.

I really should be sleeping, because I got three hours of sleep last night, and I've been exhausted all day, but I can't fall asleep. Combination of pain and worry.

Guys, thanks, truly, but I had no access! None. If I had some available, there's a strong chance I would have stumbled.

It was a choice to not have access. Well done.

I have slept. Also in a change of pattern the horror and stress resulted in me losing 3 pounds in one day. Seriously, it is hard to find an upside.

I am sick at home again. which makes it easier to cope. I just put in my earplugs and sleep.

I've decided for the nonce not to even listen to NPR. because I don't even want to hear his voice. You guys are now my news source.

I will be on Facebook but will hide any pictures of him and won't be reading any articles attached. I just can't face this.

I've been very spotty on FB, even though I weeded out any Trump zealots long ago. I just...I'm not ready to share in everyone else's angst, I guess.

Today I really need to cram on both work and school. Tomorrow I'm having Lasik on one eye. I'm both excited and terrified. Yes, I just bought new glasses, but for years I've been told that the correction I need was within the margin of error for the procedure. But technology has finally caught up with my eyes. YAY!!! But heck - I'm paying people to use an eye speculum on me and then shoot a laser at my face. WTF?

for years I've been told that the correction I need was within the margin of error for the procedure. But technology has finally caught up with my eyes. YAY!!!

Innnteresting! That's also what my eye doc tells me. I should check again when I go for my next exam.

For the first time my eyes seem to be getting bad enough to need something other than the paper thin lenses I have and really only wear for night driving if I remember them. Is it crazy to think about skipping real glasses and going straight to lasik?

Is it crazy to think about skipping real glasses and going straight to lasik?

A guy I used to work with did that. I guess it makes its own sense; instead of getting used to one new thing, then another new thing, just skip straight to the end. I'm still okay with contacts (and not having people shooting a laser at my eye), but I've been in glasses since I was 10 and contacts since I was 21, so I'm already used to them. I have a couple of friends who've done lasik, zero regrets from either of them.

Good luck with your Frikkin' Laser, Suzi!

Super jealous of Cincy F2F!

Congrats, Strix! (And Steph's Bro!)

I've been able to stay on FB more than I expected, just treading cautiously and not hesitating to unfollow as needed. NPR, on the other hand...I haven't been able to listen for months, now I'm afraid it will be years before I can come back.