Cordelia ,'Potential'
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I keep saying I need a wife. And a personal assistant.
Ain't that the truth. I have told DH repeatedly it would be a good plan for us to get a wife, personal assistant, and/or masseur. We have Christina in once a week. He calls it reboot day. We work hard. We don't do a good job with the floors and baths and stuff and she does. Also, neither of us want to do it. It is a small price to pay for the sanity it provides.
My house is dirty. My motivation this year has been pretty much devoted into sobriety (10 months, 12 days!)
I'm caught in the cycle of my house makes me so depressed, I get major anxiety because I'm struggling to even do the bare minimum for non-toxic living,and I don't clean, and my house makes me so depressed. ..
And D has been struggling with his own depression this year. The house stress us both out, and exacerbates our respective depression.
I'm skipping a therapy session to get a cleaner in next week, because we've both tried to deal with this, and we both feel pretty shitty and loser-y about it.
I've had it done once, and yes, I felt weird when both cleaners were Latinx. But then I remind myself that I have held plenty of jobs that people looked down on -- I was literally a maid for some lovely Jewish neighbors in high school, for their large holiday gatherings, and I didn't feel demeaned, because they treated me with generosity, and though I was the hired help for the evening, I always was seated at the table with the family for the service and dinner.
So as long as I treat the people providing a much needed service for me with respect and regard, I remind myself that it's OK to pay a fair price for a service well-rendered.
Oh yeah, that's part of it too--I feel so much better when the house is clean. But so hard to motivate to do it when it's not!
It hasn't worked out for me, but I have known people that had buddy systems for house cleaning. Where they would join forces with a friend and do both places. One person may like laundry more than floors and/or kitchen more than baths so they split stuff up that way.
My motivation this year has been pretty much devoted into sobriety (10 months, 12 days!)
That is wonderful to read! Very proud of you. I know it ain't easy.
It is wonderful to see you here, Strix. And wonderful to see that you have progressed so far in your sobriety.
Thank you! The first months were hard, but I'm toddling along quite happily now WRT no pills. But sober, depressed and anxious is LOADS better than fucked up, depressed and anxious.
Glad to see you here, Strix, and I'm glad you're doing so well!
Very glad for the update Strix, though I wish sobriety had helped with the depression and anxiety. I've missed your pixels.
ION, I slept like utter CRAP last night. And work processes are running s...l...........o...................w so far this morning.
I overslept, and I'm kind of dizzy from fasting and don't really feel safe driving, so I'm watching a livestream of Yom Kippur services. This feels weird.