But worst of all, it can make it seem like things will never get better.

This is the exact issue that I'm trying to deal with in analysis right now.

The fact that you're trying to deal with it puts you leaps and bounds ahead of the people who *aren't*. (Or, you know, the people who posted 2 days ago that they were going to look for and then contact potential therapists...but then didn't follow through.)

Seriously, it's a shitty, bleak thing to be dealing with, but you're trying. And that's awesome even when it feels horrible.

My anxiety cloud always floats along at my right side.

Interesting! My anxiety is like being surrounded by the visual and auditory static from a old television on a empty channel.

(Or, you know, the people who posted 2 days ago that they were going to look for and then contact potential therapists...but then didn't follow through.)

This girl did follow through! I had to leave a message because no psychiatrist's office has ever answered a ringing phone, and they never called me back. So today I have to do it again. Already I hate this psychiatrist. Whoever he is.

The anxious part of me says "People who are right in the head don't assign names and personalities to the parts of their own psyches," but then I tell myself it's better than talking to myself.

This girl did follow through!

I actually just meant me. t shame

But yay, you! Seriously!

On the plus side, I finally got an appointment with a rheumatologist. On the minus side, it's in December.

askye, are you guys okay with the incoming weather?

Since the last comforting video I linked was kittens, here is one with dogs. Mostly - I think there's one cat in there.

Hope it's helpful, even if only a little.

It's raining in my part of NC. I know in Tallahassee a lot of things have closed down.

My Grandma went home but she and my aunt live closer to the coast but still inland. I'm not sure if they were goign to Tallahassee or just stay put. I know they are saying this could be as bad as Kate for Tallahassee (Mom's house was without power for nearly 2 weeks when that happened).

I'm really hoping that this fizzles. The storm surge doesn't look like it will be as bad as Dennis but I guess it depends on the tides.

I'm at the point in my therapy where I'm feeling like what's the point because I'll do this and nothing will change.

But I keep doign it because ... sometimes because it's just habit. I know there is some improvement but there doesn't seem to be enough.

Also I keep feeling things I don't want to feel or deal with which is the point and it's tough to remind myself that this emotional upheaval is a productive thing.

I had to use my walker today, and the elevator in the parking garage was broken, but I remembered that the floor that I was on had a bridge to the library, so I walked across the bridge, and that got me to the side of a hill, and a doorway that led to a ramp, but to get from the library garage to the ramp, you had to go up two stairs. Why build a ramp that leads to stairs? Especially in a building that doesn't have any other obvious accessible way out?