There's a part of my brain that tends to shriek at change and look for the catastrophe that is surely lurking around every corner. I've begun thinking about it as a scared, panicked child, and as soon as I formulated that thought, my executive function said, "Calm down, have a kitten," and the panic settled right down with the mental kitten my sub-conscious conjured. Really, a perplexed, grey-striped kitten. So now when the panic about moving starts kicking up, I mutter "Here's a kitten," and I calm right down.
I might have to try that. Because -- completely independent of the horrible year I've been having -- I loathe change, and my lizard brain always registers it as a bad scary thing, at least initially. But maybe I can offer it a kitten to get it to chill the fuck out.
Then I picture myself going about my day, with my "anxiety cloud" following along dutifully besides me. This gives me space to think about the situation rationally--I have two perspectives, the anxiety floating besides me and the rational perspective of "that's just my anxiety."
Oooh, I may try this, too!
But worst of all, it can make it seem like things will never get better.
This is the exact issue that I'm trying to deal with in analysis right now.
But worst of all, it can make it seem like things will never get better.
This is the exact issue that I'm trying to deal with in analysis right now.
The fact that you're trying to deal with it puts you leaps and bounds ahead of the people who *aren't*. (Or, you know, the people who posted 2 days ago that they were going to look for and then contact potential therapists...but then didn't follow through.)
Seriously, it's a shitty, bleak thing to be dealing with, but you're trying. And that's awesome even when it feels horrible.
My anxiety cloud always floats along at my right side.
Interesting! My anxiety is like being surrounded by the visual and auditory static from a old television on a empty channel.
(Or, you know, the people who posted 2 days ago that they were going to look for and then contact potential therapists...but then didn't follow through.)
This girl did follow through! I had to leave a message because no psychiatrist's office has ever answered a ringing phone, and they never called me back. So today I have to do it again. Already I hate this psychiatrist. Whoever he is.
The anxious part of me says "People who are right in the head don't assign names and personalities to the parts of their own psyches," but then I tell myself it's better than talking to myself.
This girl did follow through!
I actually just meant me.
t shame
But yay, you! Seriously!
On the plus side, I finally got an appointment with a rheumatologist. On the minus side, it's in December.
askye, are you guys okay with the incoming weather?
Since the last comforting video I linked was kittens, here is one with dogs. Mostly - I think there's one cat in there.
Hope it's helpful, even if only a little.
It's raining in my part of NC. I know in Tallahassee a lot of things have closed down.
My Grandma went home but she and my aunt live closer to the coast but still inland. I'm not sure if they were goign to Tallahassee or just stay put. I know they are saying this could be as bad as Kate for Tallahassee (Mom's house was without power for nearly 2 weeks when that happened).
I'm really hoping that this fizzles. The storm surge doesn't look like it will be as bad as Dennis but I guess it depends on the tides.
