maybe cut and paste your description of the problem as well as your description of what you're looking for in the way of a normal life into a file and print them out to take to the doctor?
Calli, that's what I was just thinking of! Maybe I will.
genetic testing to find out which one(s) would actually work.
...they can do that now? Whoa. I'd do that just for fun.
is my antidepressant working and this is just adulting and adulting is hard?
I think that on ordinary days adulting is supposed to be hard like, ugh, I'd really rather sleep late and watch tv all day, but then just go and do the thing and it doesn't cause psychic distress and utter exhaustion. Unlike me, totally enervated by a trip to Target and the pet store.
My experience with hormonal birth control is that it makes everything much worse.
Oh god, so worse. I wonder if some of my mad bad decisions in my 20s were because of the Pill. About 12 years ago I got a chart of what the hormones are doing on each day of the cycle, and I can pretty much graph my bad days in step with my estrogen cycle. Estrogen up, mood down. Estrogen down, mood up. I feel great when Shark Week (or Shark Three Days) is happening.
genetic testing to find out which one(s) would actually work.
...they can do that now? Whoa. I'd do that just for fun.
They can totally do that. It's fascinating.
what you listed as a normal amount of tasks sounded like 2-3 days' worth to me
Man, me too (which throws me back into the OH GOD SO LAZY slough).
See, I don't think I'm depressed, but what you listed as a normal amount of tasks sounded like 2-3 days' worth to me, so don't expect too much of yourself.
Really? See, I don't know. I just feel like I spend way more time in the day being tired and overwhelmed and not accomplishing anything than I ought to have to.
sj, the book has been enjoyed, which is its purpose, and the hope of the person who gifted it. It is used, and at least today it is loved, which is all any book, or any gift, can ask for. It will be looked at again, and again, and loved some more, and if it's sufficiently interesting, may even be read by ltc at some point, and will linger as familiar and comforting memory well into her childhood, before it's overlaid with more recent and vivid memories. Even then, it's laying the foundation for finding joy and comfort in her belongings.
It is the furthest thing from ruined.
Oh Zen. And Emily. It's. Well, yes. And I admire both of you so much, for not only finding and assembling the words to articulate what you're going through, but for having the guts to share them. The first is so hard, and the second, I figure what's the point, it's distressing to those who don't share the experience, and isn't likely to make anything better.
Of course, sharing can lighten the load, by whatever degree. And others' experience and advice can be helpful, even enlightening, even inspirational. But believing that is so, so hard. So I'm glad you did, and put the words together and hit 'post'.
It is the furthest thing from ruined.
Bev, I love you so much.
Hugs, ~ma, and gentle fistbumps all around.
Thanks, Beverly. She was very unhappy with me when I took the chewed up book away from her.
I wonder this too. And even more often, am I depressed and does that make it hard
Yes!! I was amused/disturbed a couple years ago when we had a big party for my dad's 70th birthday and his relatives came, and we're discussing medical issues that may or may not be hereditary, and they were like "well, and there's the (mylastname) laziness. That's for sure..."
I'm crying watching the DB Cooper episode of Leverage.
Peter/Nate: Every day, I go and chase bad guys... some really bad. And pretty soon, you start to see everyone like that. It's easier that way. You know, you could... you could be like that, too. You wouldn't lose as many bikes.
Todd: But I won't find any lost dogs.
Peter/Nate: That's right. (sighs) It's not a weakness to see the good in people, all right? It's not a... a flaw or a bad thing to... to trust. Do you want to know the truth, Todd? You're the best guy I know.
I don't know why it always hits me right in the feels. Just this kid being so good-hearted that he gives up his bike to help animals.
Thanks everybody. I think I'm lazy AND I have brain chemistry issues. Where's the line? Iunno.
I am lazy, depressed, and have fatigue issues that I've never been able to fully solve.
