My experience with hormonal birth control is that it makes everything much worse.
Yikes, then ignore that suggestion!
even more often, am I depressed and does that make it hard to get up and do stuff, or am I just lazy?
You're singing my song here.
Right, what's a little sweater sniffing between sworn enemies?
Riley ,'Sleeper'
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Steph L. - Apr 22, 2016 11:49:52 am PDT #24302 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
EpicTangent - Apr 22, 2016 11:50:15 am PDT #24303 of 30002
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
See, I don't think I'm depressed, but what you listed as a normal amount of tasks sounded like 2-3 days' worth to me, so don't expect too much of yourself.
even more often, am I depressed and does that make it hard to get up and do stuff, or am I just lazy?
Though I do also wonder this on occasion.
As for the rest, everybody has said all the wise things better than I would have. I hope you can all find some relief, and not beat yourselves up for what is whacked-out brain chemistry, NOT a Moral Failing.
-t - Apr 22, 2016 12:07:21 pm PDT #24304 of 30002
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
or am I just lazy?
Yeah, that's always in the back of my mind.
Zenkitty - Apr 22, 2016 12:07:31 pm PDT #24305 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
maybe cut and paste your description of the problem as well as your description of what you're looking for in the way of a normal life into a file and print them out to take to the doctor?
Calli, that's what I was just thinking of! Maybe I will.
genetic testing to find out which one(s) would actually work.
...they can do that now? Whoa. I'd do that just for fun.
is my antidepressant working and this is just adulting and adulting is hard?
I think that on ordinary days adulting is supposed to be hard like, ugh, I'd really rather sleep late and watch tv all day, but then just go and do the thing and it doesn't cause psychic distress and utter exhaustion. Unlike me, totally enervated by a trip to Target and the pet store.
My experience with hormonal birth control is that it makes everything much worse.
Oh god, so worse. I wonder if some of my mad bad decisions in my 20s were because of the Pill. About 12 years ago I got a chart of what the hormones are doing on each day of the cycle, and I can pretty much graph my bad days in step with my estrogen cycle. Estrogen up, mood down. Estrogen down, mood up. I feel great when Shark Week (or Shark Three Days) is happening.
Steph L. - Apr 22, 2016 12:09:15 pm PDT #24306 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
genetic testing to find out which one(s) would actually work.
...they can do that now? Whoa. I'd do that just for fun.
They can totally do that. It's fascinating.
what you listed as a normal amount of tasks sounded like 2-3 days' worth to me
Man, me too (which throws me back into the OH GOD SO LAZY slough).
Zenkitty - Apr 22, 2016 12:10:56 pm PDT #24307 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
See, I don't think I'm depressed, but what you listed as a normal amount of tasks sounded like 2-3 days' worth to me, so don't expect too much of yourself.
Really? See, I don't know. I just feel like I spend way more time in the day being tired and overwhelmed and not accomplishing anything than I ought to have to.
Beverly - Apr 22, 2016 1:02:17 pm PDT #24308 of 30002
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.
sj, the book has been enjoyed, which is its purpose, and the hope of the person who gifted it. It is used, and at least today it is loved, which is all any book, or any gift, can ask for. It will be looked at again, and again, and loved some more, and if it's sufficiently interesting, may even be read by ltc at some point, and will linger as familiar and comforting memory well into her childhood, before it's overlaid with more recent and vivid memories. Even then, it's laying the foundation for finding joy and comfort in her belongings.
It is the furthest thing from ruined.
Oh Zen. And Emily. It's. Well, yes. And I admire both of you so much, for not only finding and assembling the words to articulate what you're going through, but for having the guts to share them. The first is so hard, and the second, I figure what's the point, it's distressing to those who don't share the experience, and isn't likely to make anything better.
Of course, sharing can lighten the load, by whatever degree. And others' experience and advice can be helpful, even enlightening, even inspirational. But believing that is so, so hard. So I'm glad you did, and put the words together and hit 'post'.
juliana - Apr 22, 2016 1:21:18 pm PDT #24309 of 30002
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
It is the furthest thing from ruined.
Bev, I love you so much.
Hugs, ~ma, and gentle fistbumps all around.
sj - Apr 22, 2016 1:26:59 pm PDT #24310 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Thanks, Beverly. She was very unhappy with me when I took the chewed up book away from her.
meara - Apr 22, 2016 1:38:22 pm PDT #24311 of 30002
I wonder this too. And even more often, am I depressed and does that make it hard
Yes!! I was amused/disturbed a couple years ago when we had a big party for my dad's 70th birthday and his relatives came, and we're discussing medical issues that may or may not be hereditary, and they were like "well, and there's the (mylastname) laziness. That's for sure..."