No the other thing being the barely contained shock people seem to have every time they realize ltc is mine.

wtf

Yes this what? how? what?

I totally should have had a leash after having three babies in three years and four months.

Say it with me, now: it was white, and square, and looked like a tooth, but wasn't a tooth, so I ate it.

Rest in the most peaceful peace, Ginger. You were a true friend to me when I was at my most down and out. May you find wings to whatever kingdom you want to find, with or without shrimp. Love you, dear.

My last email to Ginger:

Dear Ginger,

I am just catching up with the Buffistas and with your situation.

If I understand correctly, you have just been moved to hospice care.

I know it is unlikely you will see this email, but I am sending it in the hope that you do. I don't want you to pass. I don't want you to be on hospice care. I want you to be the glorious Ginger I've always known. Smart, funny, and atop all of us.

So, this is me, kissing you, and wishing you the best. You're a wonderful woman and great online friend. I remember you reaching out to me when my anxiety had driven me into a hole.

I remember you reaching out to me, regardless of your own situation. So, my dearest Ginger, I want you to know that you matter. You. as a person in this world, impacted my life. You reached out to me during my dark night of the soul, and you made my life better.

Thank you, my dear. I am sorry I was not able to do better. Love you, so. What a difference you've made in my life.

--Cindy

nice Cindy

back to the other conversation - one of my friends - youngest brother was tied to the poarch - it was the only way to keep him from trying to keep up with the big kids

I got coloring books today -- so pretty .

that a really nice thing - thanks Jilli! I love them

Taking long walks on the beach barefoot in Dec is not a good idea. Well maybe if your further south.

Ive bruised my feet or something. I couldn't figure out why they were so sore but the sand is hard. Much harder than when it's warm and that makes sense.

I've also developed a post nasal drip cough. Which is more annoying than anything. At least I hope it doesn't develop into something more.

Cindy, thank you for sharing that.

Ooooh, Coloring books!

askye, I hope it's just a little allergy.

I'm sure TCG would have the whiskey for me.

That's lovely, Cindy.

Yesh, I don't think it has ever occurred to me to ask an adult woman with a baby if the baby is hers, but it happens all the time.

Yesh, I don't think it has ever occurred to me to ask an adult woman with a baby if the baby is hers, but it happens all the time.

Geez. I mean, I actually do tend not to assume much about any woman-and-baby combo I see out and about unless breastfeeding is actively happening -- there are so many older parents, very young parents, sibs with age gaps, grandparents as primary caregivers, nannies, etc., that I don't presume much of anything. But, for shit's sake, I also don't assume I have any right to demand an explanation of the relationship from any of these women, and I for sure wouldn't be rude enough to express surprise if she offered one anyway. What the actual fuck?

And because it deserves a separate post, Cindy, that is utterly beautiful. And I still can't believe how many people Ginger reached out to and how active she was in so many lives while she had so much of her own to deal with.