I remember a teacher that when X% of students got a question wrong he assumed there was an issue with the question and gave an extra point for the exam. If you were one of the lucky few that had it right, bonus point! I had a few exams over 100% for that reason. Yes, we liked him!

Yeah, I was thinking of a particular Psych Prof I had who would go over the exam with us immediately after and if we could make a reasonable argument for the way we got it wrong, or if enough people got one wrong, she gave us the point. And yes, we liked her too!

I don't remember how I got back from New Orleans. I just realize this last night. I've blocked out a lot, and I've lost a lot of time. I'm completely addicted to ambien and xanax. I told D last night, before I lost my nerve. My friend who is a therapist, is pushing in a, and I am highly resistant to it. I'm going to see my psychiatrist with my husband. But, I need to find an NA group that is full of geniuses and scientists and atheists. I find the higher power talk such bullshit. But there has to be a group online somewhere that caters to my particular buy it. Anyone?

Sarah, I'm sorry I fucked up your birthday party. From what I remember, it was a lovely time. I wish I remembered more of it.

{{{Strix}}} I'm sorry. I don't know anything about NA, but if there is anything else I can do, I'm around.

{{Strix}} I am without a lot of knowledge, but hope that you can find a perfect group.

Strix, thanks for telling us. That had to be hard as hell. Going to your psychiatrist with D is a good start -- your psychiatrist may know of NA or other groups that might work for you. There's something called Rational Recovery that is secular, but I don't think it's group-based.

So much love to you, honey.

Oh, Strix. This is so tough. I hope you find the solutions that meet your needs.

Guys, thanks. Yes, it was superhard. Steph, thanks for the link. I fucking hate group work.

I can't wait for my laptop to get back to me. Its being fixed right now by the company and I wouldn't have any charges against me. It's the keyboard. God, my hands are sweating, and my whole body is just flushing hot and cold right now as I talk to you on my phone. You guys are the smartest people in out, and the best and I know that you'll call me on my bullshit, if you know the truth.

I accidentally posted twice and deleted it. I didn't say anything of substance. I didn't say anything at all, just hit the button. Which is why I wish I had my laptop back.

Much love to you, Strix. I hope you can find good help. When do you see your psychiatrist? What do you need to get you through to that meeting?